Your voice, frozen in the wind... Chapter 2

[lilly0]

Title: Your voice, frozen in the wind, surrounds me like snow petals Chapter 2 (of 12)
Pairing: KameRyo, other guest appearances
Rating: PG-13 (for this chapter)
Genre: AU, romance, bit angst (like in every romance story), It might be the hurt&comfort type of fic
Multi-chapter
Disclaimer: I don't own them or anything else JE-related. But the story is mine of course^^
Summary: Being a privileged boy out of a rich family doesn’t mean you get more love. Kame knows that just too well. All day long he fights against this monster called loneliness, until a new boy joins his class. He is coming out of a different background and just as lonely as he is.
Kame fights against the feelings that are awakening inside him, not able to trust anyone around him. But then he starts to get strange anonymous messages, his heart warming up towards a person he doesn’t even know…and to this strange boy in his class.
Dedicated to: sweetspicyhot. As a belated birthday present! I really really hope you will like this, my friend!





“So, where are you from, Nishikido-kun?” Some of the girls where hovering over Ryo’s table, looking at him curiously.

Jin rolled his eyes at that. “Really…they are like the piranhas. Give them fresh flesh and they will get crazy.”

“You are just jealous.” Uchi intervened. “Because he is prettier than you are.”

“What?” Jin teased. “Is the princess still grumpy because of last week?”

“Shut up.” Uchi grumbled.

“Jin’s right.” Kame mumbled. “He is not that special…”

“See?” Jin pulled an eyebrow up. “Kazu thinks the same. They just like him because he is new and new things are interesting… Give them two weeks and they aren’t interested anymore.”

“Yeah.” Kame mumbled, looking at Ryo for a moment. “He really isn’t that gorgeous. I don’t get the fuss.” He shook his head, hiding his blush perfectly behind his cold surface.

“And I still think…” Uchi started again. “…that Kazu might not like him for real, but Jin is just jealous.”

“You know what princess? Cut it.” Jin told him.

Pi sighed deeply. “Honestly… let’s just stop this, okay? You are getting on my nerves…”

“He is right. Actually you guys are just making the same fuss over him as the girls.” Jun laughed. “Okay, let’s go then. It’s lunch break after all.”

“True.” Pi mused. “We could go to our place. It’s still warm outside…”

“Good idea.” Jin jumped up. He turned around a bit. “What are you waiting for Kazu?”

Kame stood up, following his friends outside and walking towards the door. He tried to ignore the comments from the girls towards the new guy. He isn’t really chatty. But so serious.

He is cool…

Mysterious…

Cute~

This was so ridiculous, really.

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At least you have a mother…

Kame sighed tiredly when he remembered these words in the note-book. He wanted to ignore them, ignore this little house and the fact that apparently someone else beside him knew about it. He wanted to forget about it. But he couldn’t. And this almost drove him insane. He never gave a shit about anyone beside himself, he didn’t want to interact with people too much. Even his friends he kept on a distance. And he only hung out with them, because society expected him to have some friends that fit him.

Not that he didn’t like them, but he didn’t want to know too much about them, and he didn’t want them to know too much about him. It made him nervous. He hated it to open up. Nevertheless he was glad that he found this bunch of guys, because they pretty much left him alone, not butting into his business all the time.

The more he was surprised that this little message in the secret notebook affected him so much. He didn’t want it to affect him. It made him nervous and unsure and uncomfortable. And at the same time he was curious. Who wrote this message? Who else was out there? Why? He sighed, rubbing over his head a bit. Well, weekend would come up soon… and then he would be looking for a save place again… Hence, he just had to go to the little, calm cottage. He didn’t want to give up on it, just because someone else had found it too. He had been there first, damn! So he had a right to be there.

“Hey…”

Kame blinked when he heard a low and almost shy voice behind him. He turned around, his eyes immediately catching the fragile guy, sitting on one of the window sills. Now Ryo jumped down, bending down to pick up Kame’s wallet. “You lost that.”

Kame looked at Ryo first, then at the wallet in his hand. He took it, looking away from Ryo. “Thanks.” He mumbled. “But from now on don’t mind my business…”

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Kame stretched when he lay down under the sun. It felt warm and comfortable. They had one hour free now and while his friends were playing basketball, he was lying at a hidden place at the roof top, to have some free minutes alone.

“You are getting too much attention… little scum.”

Kame blinked at that, sitting up a bit and turning his head to see what’s going on. He was surprised to see the new boy leaning against the balustrade, three guys around him. They were from the third grade, older than they were. Bullies. Kame pretty much despised them.

Ryo didn’t answer to their offending words, apparently he was planning to ignore them. Kame wavered for a moment… Should he ignore them or save Ryo. Kame sighed, he wasn’t interested at all to step between them. He didn’t want to bother with this Ryo… not because he didn’t like him, but he simply wasn’t interested in the problems that an interaction with him would bring along. But there was a difference between butting into someone’s business or befriending him and letting someone being bullied. After all Ryo was much tinier than these three guys.

Kame sat up, ready to go between these guys and Ryo, when his eyes widened in shock. He could see how Ryo pulled himself free from the guys, jumping up and standing on the balustrade out of a sudden. “If you come any closer or bother me again, I’ll jump…” he mumbled, eyes shining in a cold determination that made Kame shiver. He meant it. This guy meant what he said. He would jump. For a moment Kame was too paralyzed to even move or react in any way, eyes just pinned to this slender boy, ready to end his life in such a way.

Then the realization slowly hit him and he finally pulled his body out of this state of numbness and rushed towards the scene in front of him. To his luck apparently also the other guys were shocked.

“He is…insane.” One of them mumbled in fear.

“Let’s go…” the other stuttered, obviously afraid that Ryo would fulfil his dangerous promise.

Gladly there often wasn’t much strength or anything similar strong behind these guys, so they all pulled away immediately, leaving the scene as fast as possible.

Kame stared at Ryo in utter shock, then he grabbed his arm and pulling him down. “Are you insane, idiot?”

With a swift movement Ryo got his arm free from Kame’s grip, not even looking at him. He grabbed his back. “Sorry for minding your business.” he told him coldly, before he turned around and left Kame alone on the roof deck.

Kame sighed, exactly this was one of the reasons he didn’t like to interact with people. Emotions and feelings always got in their way… they became angry and annoyed and sad and troubled. And Kame didn’t want to know any of these details and emotions.

Just that there was something in this picture of Ryo, standing on the balustrade that didn’t let him go again. Had he really been ready to jump? Ending his own life… this was a huge step. What kind of dark feelings were swirling around inside Ryo?

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Kame sighed tiredly when he reached the little cottage, feeling warm immediately when he closed the door behind him. He sat down on one of the chairs, pulling his knees up to comfort himself from the emptiness inside and around him.

He sighed deeply, angling for the book inside of the box. When he opened it, he blinked in surprise. It was clearly there. At least you have a mother…

But beneath it there was written something else, a new line.

Why am I alone? Why do I have to live in such a world all alone?

A/N: Everyone, sorry for the posting delay. I was sick and couldn't update. However, here it is, the 2nd chapter. Soon things will start rolling, I promise :D
I hope you like this chapter <3
I'll be on vacations for a week, but then I will start updating regularly again!


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Note: Dear friends and readers! Thanks so much for all your support <3  To thank you I opened up a Request Post. If you feel like requesting a one-shot with a specific pairing or situation you can do so HERE.

Comments

[lilly0]

SPOT for sweetspicyhot

[sweetspicyhot.livejournal.com]

I really love this story. Of course the scene that is my favorite in this chapter is when Kame is about to intervene with the bullies and Ryo makes his desperate move. I already want to know what Kame will write back. i wonder if and when Ryo will become part of the group. They are such a strong bunch, well, Kame sets the tone though doesn't he. i love the atmosphere of the cottage and how it differs from school, and how in the cottage though it's isolated, one could feel warm. And in school surrounded by people one could feel so alone. Thanks for this update. I am excited for the next one.:D

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your awesome comment!! *huggles*
I'm glad you like this - it's yours after all ^_^
For me as the author of this story it's always so interesting to know your favourite scenes - so, thanks for telling me that <3
These two need each other - they just don't know it yet.

[yukitsubute]

So the story starts now. <3 I totally love it. :D

Kame is such a great character, even though he is moody and melancholic, but I really like that, because it makes him so deep and interesting.

Ryo is really great. He can defend himself from others. ^^ I totally like that.

Oh, Jin and Uchi are so adorable, even though both don't know what they feel for each other till now, right?! XDDDD

No, Kame-chan, Ryo isn't special...*headdesk* And no, you don't feel attracted to him. *more-headdesk*

The thing with the notebook is so great, but I think I already told you about it. :D

Thanks soooo much for the update, I totally loved it.

*hugs*

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your awesome comment!! <3
I'm so happy you like this story <3

Yes, Kame is a character that's not easy to define. He is moody and unfriendly, but there is something that makes it impossible for him not to help.

And Ryo...maybe these two are actually quite similar? Well, we'll see :D

LOL Jin and Uchi - this is going to be difficult. ^^

Thanks so much for reading!! *huggles*

[lou-rules.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling better!
Thank you for the update, I can't wait to read more!

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your lovely comment!! <3
Yes, I'm feeling much better!! *huggles*
Hope you'll also enjoy the next chapter <3

[ecatheriina.livejournal.com]

No! NO! NOOO! Ryo, dun jump! >< ! T^T My sexy love!, why are u suffering that much? T^T Kame help him! love him! and etc etc xD

I loved it! be waiting for more *0*

Thanks for sharing :D

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your awesome comment!!!!!! <3
Yes, Ryo seems to be quite desperate, right? And Kame...well, we'll see :D
I hope you will like this story <3

[lybrint.livejournal.com]

I just read it n it's really lovely ^_^ I like the 'facebook' part ^_~ Even they bump 2 each others but there really not ne...I like the atmosphere here n Ryo is so mysterious..kyaaa~ Kakoii~ >_<

Great chap & thank U 4 updated =)

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your lovely comment, dear!! *huggles*
I'm so happy you like this story <3
And yes, Ryo will be mysterious <3

[yoru-no-hikaru.livejournal.com]

Meh, Kame is the kind of character that is really hard to take. It's not like he's a bad guy, but he seems too stuck in his own world, so he's self-centred without even noticing it. I understand his feelings and all, but seeing how he's actually a sensitive guy, he should consider other people a bit more too. *nods* And dwelling too much in his own pain. You have friends, damn it, put them to good use. @_@ Well, Ryo seems to have some kind of effect on him. It might be that he's feeling a bit like he's "looking into a mirror"? It is fascinating in a disturbing way to see someone being/acting similar to you. I wonder how they will interact from here?

Ryo's stunt shocked me quite a bit. Atthe same time, he also gives me that aggravating feeling. How careless can you possibly be? >_< Toying with your life like that?

Seems like these two are made for each other. XDDD
Sorry if the comment reads like I'm bitching. I like that they are such strong characters. You write them very vividly too. It's just that I wnat to slap some sense into them. ^^" But then, I guess that's a sign that you characterize them really well. ^_~

Can't wait to see where this will go. Seems like we'll get a lot of background? ^^ Very much looking forward to more. <3

PS: UchiPi are <3
XDDDD

[lilly0]

Hey dear,

not mad at all about your comment, so don't worry. Actually I think you got it pretty well.
Kame indeed is a difficult character here. Is a teenager, caught in his own negative feelings and problems and meanwhile he doesn't see that others are struggling too. So, somehow he is self-centred. You analyzed him pretty well. But, it will get better. He still has to learn some things.
So does Ryo. But Ryo's desperation comes from somewhere else. Would he have jumped? He is not really careless, I can tell you as much ^^

Thanks so much for reading and commenting!! Feel free to slap them - it's okay I guess :D

*huggles*

[jorian1108.livejournal.com]

So I found it :-)
Ohhh, there must be something really bothering these guys - I'm so sorry for both of them...
But Ryo - scary moment... what makes him so desperate, so sad and lonely??? Poor kid...

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your lovely comment!! <3 I'm so glad you are still following this story <3
*huggles*

[mari02.livejournal.com]

honey you need to save a spot for me each time you update this, okay? *now i know i would need the next chapters omg*

i am just in love with this story. all the darkness and mystery going on with kame and ryo. i already have said that ryo's story seem to be more interesting and dark. but kame's situation doesn't make things easier for him, right?

so ryo's getting attention from the girls, now, right? i hope he's gonna be okay with jin and the gang, too! they talk a lot but i know they're good people, too. i like how uchi acts like a princess all the time and jin being whiny. it's just fun to read about them!

i pity kame. but okay, being miserable does not excuse anyone from being polite, you know. i know he's trying to distance himself from anybody but i guess he should be more cautious about how he's affecting other people. i hope ryo's not that much of a weakling for taking this incident with kame off.

okok. that was really intense, i know i have so much feeling about ryo here but that was intense. really, he has suicidal tendencies here? poor ryo. his life must be really hard. so you see, kame! you're not alone and definitely your problem is maybe not that big as compared with other people? i am sure that ryo's the one answering kame so yeah. he doesn't have parents, right? and now, people are even bullying him. poor little boy. i hope kame protects him!

again, omg. i feel so sad and empathetic about ryo here. it's not like i see kame's situation really light but i've always had these feels about people having no parents at all. his life must be so hard and lonely. i wonder how these two will be able to make each other really happy!

honey please, i'd like an update. i hope i can see one soon despite my you know, a bit late set of comments!

i totally love this story! omggomogmg

[lilly0]

Hello my dear,

here I am! I found it <3 Sorry for the delay ><

I'm so happy you like this! There will be a lot going on with Kame and Ryo here - I can promise that already :D

You are right, Kame is trying to hide from people by being impolite. I guess by now you read the rest of it, right? So you know how Ryo reacts towards Kame. He is not all that weak, right? ^^
(But I'm not sure if you already read it, so I won't say anything ^^ *doesn'twanttospoilthefun*)

Ryo has quite some things that are bothering him. He is really lonely.

Well, maybe these two can help each other?

Thanks so much for your lovely comment, dear!! *huggles* I'm so happy you like this story <3