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Vertigo (Sakumiya) Part 2/2
~~~
Once they reached Sho’s room, they immediately dropped into his bed. As a tutor, he has a single room. How useful.
Nino didn’t know what was happening to him, but his head felt dizzy and his heart hammered against his chest madly whenever Sho touched him. He didn’t even try to regain control, he simply clung to Sho, hands around his neck, fingers brushing through Sho’s hair.
He could feel the other’s breath against his skin, leaving hot and burning patterns all over his body. Nino isn’t sure if it has ever been this intense with anyone else. Sho was gentle and rough at the same time and it felt so freaking good. Nino had quite some experiences, most of them loose connections with guys he had met once and felt attracted to, but he had never slept with someone and felt that way. Felt so happy.
For a moment he was afraid that he was going crazy. It felt like he was about to faint, too overwhelmed by what was going on.
Later on, they were lying next to each other quietly for a while. It was a comfortable silence though. Sho’s breath was going steady now. Nino had to smile. He rubbed closer to Sho, his fingers touching Sho’s cheek softly, before he placed a soft kiss on it.
Just like that they fell asleep.
~~~
The next morning, Nino felt tired, but not in a bad way. More like a very content tiredness. He opened his eyes, turning around just enough to see that Sho wasn’t lying next to him. He blinked in confusion, crawling out of the bed. While he was still looking around, some clothes were suddenly thrown towards him. More out of a reflex than real intention, he caught them, baffled. When he finally saw Sho, his heart jumped, until he looked into the other’s eyes. “What-”
“I can’t believe it.” Sho breathed out, sounding almost desperate and disgusted. Disgusted at himself and Nino. “That I did that.”
“What do you mean?” Nino asked carefully, not sure if he was getting anything right here.
“We just had sex!” Sho answered, his voice shaking in fury.
“And?” Nino asked, sounding totally oblivious.
“So it is true?” Sho huffed, a sort of anger in his voice that Nino couldn’t quite put a finger on. “That you sleep with these guys even though you're with Jun?”
“What-” Nino was too taken aback to know how to react to that. Jun? What? What the hell was he talking about? And how did Sho know about his one-night-stands with Aiba and Ohno? “Did you-” He took a deep breath, his voice shaking slightly. “-just use me? Test me? To see if I’m good enough for your Jun?”
“I was checking on you, yes.” Sho glared, his voice sounding cold, his eyes so dark that Nino flinched a bit. “It wasn’t part of my plan to sleep with you though. Like I normally would… with someone like you. Obviously you're right, you're not good enough to be with Jun. So, could you leave my room now?”
~~~
Nino was shaking when he left Sho’s room, too confused and too hurt to even understand what was going on.
But with that night and the next morning, he had painfully realized several things: that Sho is immensely beautiful, that he is cool and smart – and surprisingly interesting, that he had just had the best sex of his life, that Sho is probably the biggest (but also coolest) jerk here in the campus, and that he has fallen madly for him.
You shouldn’t mess around with him.
High principles.
Out of them all… he has fallen for this guy. Who is also Jun’s ex. For a moment, Nino’s eyes widened. Hell, how was he going to tell Jun!?
If this is love, he doesn’t want it.
~~~
Aiba poked Nino’s cheek a bit, looking at his friend in worry. “Are you alright?”
Nino winced, looking at Aiba in surprise. “Aiba-chan? What?”
“We're having a rehearsal here.”
Nino blinked in confusion, then his eyes widened. “Sorry guys.” He bowed a bit. “I’m not feeling well.”
“Do you want to take a break?” Ohno asked in concern. “Seriously Kazu-chan, you look horrible. Just go and lie down a bit okay?”
Jun nodded his head. “Yes, he's right. You should rest.” Nino could see how he frowned slightly, his eyes looking at his insistently, like he wants to read something in them. Nino decided to flee the room.
~~~
Nino sighed when he dropped down on his bed, curling up there and looking at the wall gloomily. He couldn’t put a finger on his feelings, he couldn’t explain them, but he felt like a complete mess… and he felt hurt. It just hurt so much.
“I think I’m sick.” he mumbled when he heard how the door opened up and Jun came into the room.
“No you are not.” Jun sat down next to his friend, lifting his legs up a bit and placing them over Nino’s so that he has enough place next to him. He touched the other’s hair softly. “What happened?” he asked gently, his soft voice a contrast to the deep frown on his forehead. “Something happened. I know you well enough to be able to tell that.”
Nino didn’t answer, still staring at the wall. Nervousness was filling him now that Jun is here with him, being so nice though he doesn’t deserve it at all. “I did something not so good.” he admitted quietly.
“What did you do?” Jun asked carefully, patting Nino’s waist a bit. “Tell me, Kazu. It’s me, you know? Good old Jun, who you built sandcastles with when you were three years old.”
Nino sighed, sitting up to face Jun. He isn’t the type to run away from a problem and he needed to tell Jun. “I had sex… it wasn’t planned… I originally just wanted to check him out because he hurt you… and I wanted to, well, get back to him for that. But suddenly we landed in bed together. He was more interesting than expected and I suddenly got involved… in whatever it is.”
Jun stared at Nino in surprise, obviously not even understanding one word from Nino’s story. “Who did hurt me?” he finally picked up the part Nino dreaded the most.
“Your ex-boyfriend.” Nino answered warily. “I’m so sorry Jun. I didn’t plan to sleep with him. I was drunk and he was so pretty, and alluring, and interesting. It was like falling down somewhere, like bungee jumping. I’m so sorry. Please, please forgive me. Please, I beg you!”
Jun blinked in obvious confusion, tilting his head a bit, like he couldn’t even remember. “Which ex-boyfriend are you talking about?”
What the hell was going on here?
“Sakurai Sho-san.” Nino answered honestly, rubbing over his head tiredly. He frowned a bit when a sudden pain overwhelmed him. First he thought that Jun had hit him, but then he realized that it didn’t come from Jun, the pain came from inside him. He cringed in pain, gritting his teeth to not cry at that feeling.
“KAZU!” Jun jumped up in shock, tugging at his friend’s arm. “What? What’s happening?”
~~~
“I can’t believe you had a panic attack.” Ohno snorted a bit. “Jun almost had a nervous breakdown because of that.”
“I’m sorry.” Nino sighed a bit, feeling too tired to tease Ohno back or to say something biting. He had just woken up and threw up for almost two hours. “It just overwhelmed me.”
“Seriously, Kazu.” Ohno was earnest all of a sudden. “You need to get rid of this emotional baggage. It’s not like you to crumble under problems. So, since we're alone, tell me what happened. Every detail. I want to know it now and I won’t accept any excuses. You will tell me. After all, I’m for sure not involved.”
“But Jun-”
“Jun is not here. I sent him to get some coffee. He was way too worried to stay calm.”
Nino looked at Ohno warily, not sure what he should do now. But there is something about Ohno which makes him crumble immediately. Only Ohno could do that to him, to make him talk without forcing him to or without convincing him for hours. And so he did. He told him everything that happened during the last few weeks, starting with the day he arrived and witnessed the strange meeting between Sho and Jun in the library up until the day Sho dumped him and he had an emotional breakdown.
Ohno listened patiently, his thoughts obviously circling around what Nino had told him, then he smiled slightly. “So you fell in love?”
“Weren’t you listening?” Nino asked in frustration.
“Oh, I was listening, very well.” Ohno smiled warmly. “You like Sakurai-san, even though he broke your heart and though he is Jun’s ex-boyfriend. It just makes me wonder why Jun never talked about him or why I never met those two together. I mean, he did have the one or other one-night stand, until he met Aiba-kun. But a serious relationship with Sakurai-san? Are you sure that they were together, Kazu?”
“Yes.” Nino nodded his head. “Sho-kun is still feeling so protective over him. It seemed to be a really deep relationship. He was so mad. I can’t even understand myself. How could I do that to Jun? If this whole mess means love, then, thank you, I pass!”
Ohno blinked, tilting his head. Nino wasn’t quite so sure what he was thinking. Hopefully he wouldn’t tell Jun about it, but before he could make him promise, Ohno had already taken his hand into his. His reassuring words were dripping down on Nino, telling him that everyone still loves him, until he finally fell asleep.
~~~
Nino was still supposed to take it calmly and not stress himself. Clear order from the doctor. And from Jun, who was a lot more dangerous and stricter than any doctor could be. So Nino decided to listen once in his life and was lying on the sofa in his and Jun’s room. The sun was shining outside and he had his eyes closed. He just didn’t feel like seeing anything or anyone right now.
When he heard the door to their room opening, he was pretty sure that it was Jun. Or maybe Aiba or Ohno.
That was until he heard a very specific and well-known voice.
“Jun’s my cousin.”
Nino jumped in shock when he heard Sho’s voice next to him, his stomach cringing in sudden pain. He was almost afraid that he might throw up again. Then the words the other had said finally sunk in. “What?”
Sho sighed. “Care for a tea? My treat. And don’t worry, it’s not far away. I’m just going to take you to the dormitory’s cafeteria.”
~~~
Awkward silence. The kind of silence Nino hated the most, awkward, nerve-wracking, annoying. “Cousins?” he finally broke the silence, shifting his cup of tea in his hands and still trying to grasp what Sho had said to him earlier.
Sho bit his lip before he let out a sigh. “Yes. Jun is my cousin. I'm very protective of him, though he hates it. He is like a brother for me. We had a fight because of that right before you arrived here… I guess that’s the reason why he didn’t introduce me to you. You know, we grew up very close and Jun spent a lot of time with my family during holidays. I guess you know that, right?”
Nino nodded his head warily, remembering how Jun had always gone away for holidays for several weeks. His relatives had been rather wealthy and often invited him to travel with them. Now that he remembered this, he could even recall that he had also met Sho several times, when he had been visiting Jun’s family. A very awkward and shy Sho. So completely different to the Sho now. And Jun has always referred to him as my cousin not as Sho. Nino sighed deeply. “That’s the reason you looked kinda familiar.”
Sho looked down at his fingers nervously. “I thought you were messing around with Jun.” he admitted quietly, sounding embarrassed all of a sudden. “I heard from my friends that you were going out quite a lot and I was worried about Jun. I told you that I feel quite protective over him.”
“But-” Nino shook his head. “I wasn’t with Jun. Never. He's been my best friend since we were kids.” He paused, trying to recollect all the things that had happened during the last few weeks. Then he sighed slightly. “Oh, shit. The day when you saw us in the restaurant and I was flirting with Jun-”
“Yes.”
For a moment, Nino was speechless at his own stupidity. So, the only reason Sho was so mad and hurt him like that, was because he thought he was originally dating Jun and betraying him with other guys? And it was all his fault for pretending to be Jun’s boyfriend! Screw his own lies! “I was just acting. I thought you were his ex-boyfriend and hurt him and I wanted to get back at you for it. That’s why I pretended to be his new and better boyfriend.” He explained. “Oh man, I can’t even believe it. This is too many misunderstandings. Do you even believe me, Sho-kun?”
“Of course I do. Besides that, I already know the truth.” Sho answered quietly.
Nino looked at Sho in surprise. “Eh? How?”
“Jun told me.” Sho explained warily. “Apparently, he got to know from Ohno-kun and came straight to my place. He is pretty straightforward, well you know that for sure, and can get quite angry occasionally – especially when it’s me. He blamed me for everything, of course, and yelled at me for hurting you and for messing with your feelings. I think he spent almost an hour telling me how stupid and how much of a jerk I am.” He chuckled a bit. “He set a new record with that.”
“Wait-” Nino blushed slightly. Ohno told Jun? And it was Jun who solved this whole misunderstanding? How freaking embarrassing! And messing with his feelings? So Sho did know everything!? Absolutely everything! Great, thanks for keeping my secret, Satoshi! “You know-“ Nino began carefully, too exhausted for any games or lies. “I guess I do have feelings for you, but I can understand if it was only a once in a lifetime for you. It would just be nice, if you, well, could-” he paused, searching for the right words. “- respect my feelings and not throw them away. I mean it. Honestly.”
There was a pause in which Sho looked at him for a while, through those deep and pretty eyes of his, the ones Nino could get lost in so easily. How the hell was he supposed to get over this guy now?
“I’m sorry for what I said last week. After we had sex.” Sho finally said. “That was a very, very low blow and I don’t even know how to apologize for it. I was mad, mostly at myself, and let all my wrath out on you, a weak point of my character by the way. Jun is right. I hope you can forgive me for that.” he admitted much to Nino’s surprise. “I wanted to check you out of course… well, you know my reasons by now. But I didn’t intend to play with your feelings. I didn’t want to use you in any way. It’s true that I checked on you and got some information from other students.” He smiled. “Just like you did. To be honest, I just…I couldn’t help it. You were fun to be with and I had a good time. The whisky, the atmosphere added to it. On top of that, you are pretty good-looking and not a bad guy. I was surprised by how smart you actually are and – well – I did feel attracted to you. That’s why I went with the flow when you kissed me.” He paused, before he added. “And just so you know: I don’t do one-night-stands.”
Nino stayed silent for a moment, still too shocked to think properly. He needed to sort his thoughts. Too many revealing information at once. So first of all, this here was all a misunderstanding. They both had been totally stupid and misinterpreted a totally simple situation? And they could have avoided all this shit?
I don’t do one-night-stands. What the hell was that supposed to mean now!? Who could even read such words properly?
“You and Jun have some similarities.” He complained.
Sho smiled slightly. “Better don’t tell Jun that at the moment, maybe in two weeks when I have managed to settle our fight. That’s normally the time it takes. Just a friendly advice from my side.”
Nino smiled. It was not like him to ponder over so many things. When he thought about how much he has changed during the last weeks, he laughed a bit, the gloomy thoughts finally dissipating a bit. “Sho-kun-“ he paused, eyeing Sho insistently. “Do you, in any way, like me or am I just wasting my effort right now?”
“I told you.” Sho said calmly and leaned back a bit. There it was again, this inscrutable expression. So annoying, but at the same time so alluring. “I don’t do one-night-stands. Never.”
Okay. Never. So did that mean- How should he know what it meant!? Nino brushed through is hair, chuckling slightly. Out of desperation or relief, he didn’t know. “You really were a jerk, you know that? Well, I guess I would have done the same thing when I believe someone would hurt a person close to me. Damn, what should I say, I did something very similar – after all I wanted to use you too. So I guess I’m not that much better.” He smiled, looking at Sho directly now. “Still, you are a prick sometimes!”
“Nothing new. You're not the first to tell me that.” Sho answered dryly. “So anything else to say? Or is that your only complaint?”
Nino grinned at that, leaning back. Sho was able to catch up, definitely. He could like that. “You said you did feel attracted towards me. What about now?”
“Hm-“ Sho tilted his head a bit, a wary smile on his lips. “You still owe me that stupid game of yours.” He suggested much to Nino’s delight.
His heart jumped in happiness. It felt like it was too early for that. He should probably talk to Jun before (and bear with his complaints about why he wanted to date that guy) or Ohno (who would probably not say much). He should try to heal his mind and heart a bit. But unfortunately, his heart just didn’t listen to him.
“That is, if you still want me of course.” Sho continued, like he didn’t know how much Nino actually still wanted him. It’s like his feelings were growing with every day. “There is just one condition-”
“What is it?” Nino asked curiously.
“I don’t like to share.” Sho said firmly, a sudden amused glint in his eyes. “If you touch any other guys, I’m going to kick your pretty butt.”
Nino laughed. Full-heartedly. For the first time in weeks, he felt all free again.
Goodbye old life.
Once they reached Sho’s room, they immediately dropped into his bed. As a tutor, he has a single room. How useful.
Nino didn’t know what was happening to him, but his head felt dizzy and his heart hammered against his chest madly whenever Sho touched him. He didn’t even try to regain control, he simply clung to Sho, hands around his neck, fingers brushing through Sho’s hair.
He could feel the other’s breath against his skin, leaving hot and burning patterns all over his body. Nino isn’t sure if it has ever been this intense with anyone else. Sho was gentle and rough at the same time and it felt so freaking good. Nino had quite some experiences, most of them loose connections with guys he had met once and felt attracted to, but he had never slept with someone and felt that way. Felt so happy.
For a moment he was afraid that he was going crazy. It felt like he was about to faint, too overwhelmed by what was going on.
Later on, they were lying next to each other quietly for a while. It was a comfortable silence though. Sho’s breath was going steady now. Nino had to smile. He rubbed closer to Sho, his fingers touching Sho’s cheek softly, before he placed a soft kiss on it.
Just like that they fell asleep.
~~~
The next morning, Nino felt tired, but not in a bad way. More like a very content tiredness. He opened his eyes, turning around just enough to see that Sho wasn’t lying next to him. He blinked in confusion, crawling out of the bed. While he was still looking around, some clothes were suddenly thrown towards him. More out of a reflex than real intention, he caught them, baffled. When he finally saw Sho, his heart jumped, until he looked into the other’s eyes. “What-”
“I can’t believe it.” Sho breathed out, sounding almost desperate and disgusted. Disgusted at himself and Nino. “That I did that.”
“What do you mean?” Nino asked carefully, not sure if he was getting anything right here.
“We just had sex!” Sho answered, his voice shaking in fury.
“And?” Nino asked, sounding totally oblivious.
“So it is true?” Sho huffed, a sort of anger in his voice that Nino couldn’t quite put a finger on. “That you sleep with these guys even though you're with Jun?”
“What-” Nino was too taken aback to know how to react to that. Jun? What? What the hell was he talking about? And how did Sho know about his one-night-stands with Aiba and Ohno? “Did you-” He took a deep breath, his voice shaking slightly. “-just use me? Test me? To see if I’m good enough for your Jun?”
“I was checking on you, yes.” Sho glared, his voice sounding cold, his eyes so dark that Nino flinched a bit. “It wasn’t part of my plan to sleep with you though. Like I normally would… with someone like you. Obviously you're right, you're not good enough to be with Jun. So, could you leave my room now?”
~~~
Nino was shaking when he left Sho’s room, too confused and too hurt to even understand what was going on.
But with that night and the next morning, he had painfully realized several things: that Sho is immensely beautiful, that he is cool and smart – and surprisingly interesting, that he had just had the best sex of his life, that Sho is probably the biggest (but also coolest) jerk here in the campus, and that he has fallen madly for him.
You shouldn’t mess around with him.
High principles.
Out of them all… he has fallen for this guy. Who is also Jun’s ex. For a moment, Nino’s eyes widened. Hell, how was he going to tell Jun!?
If this is love, he doesn’t want it.
~~~
Aiba poked Nino’s cheek a bit, looking at his friend in worry. “Are you alright?”
Nino winced, looking at Aiba in surprise. “Aiba-chan? What?”
“We're having a rehearsal here.”
Nino blinked in confusion, then his eyes widened. “Sorry guys.” He bowed a bit. “I’m not feeling well.”
“Do you want to take a break?” Ohno asked in concern. “Seriously Kazu-chan, you look horrible. Just go and lie down a bit okay?”
Jun nodded his head. “Yes, he's right. You should rest.” Nino could see how he frowned slightly, his eyes looking at his insistently, like he wants to read something in them. Nino decided to flee the room.
~~~
Nino sighed when he dropped down on his bed, curling up there and looking at the wall gloomily. He couldn’t put a finger on his feelings, he couldn’t explain them, but he felt like a complete mess… and he felt hurt. It just hurt so much.
“I think I’m sick.” he mumbled when he heard how the door opened up and Jun came into the room.
“No you are not.” Jun sat down next to his friend, lifting his legs up a bit and placing them over Nino’s so that he has enough place next to him. He touched the other’s hair softly. “What happened?” he asked gently, his soft voice a contrast to the deep frown on his forehead. “Something happened. I know you well enough to be able to tell that.”
Nino didn’t answer, still staring at the wall. Nervousness was filling him now that Jun is here with him, being so nice though he doesn’t deserve it at all. “I did something not so good.” he admitted quietly.
“What did you do?” Jun asked carefully, patting Nino’s waist a bit. “Tell me, Kazu. It’s me, you know? Good old Jun, who you built sandcastles with when you were three years old.”
Nino sighed, sitting up to face Jun. He isn’t the type to run away from a problem and he needed to tell Jun. “I had sex… it wasn’t planned… I originally just wanted to check him out because he hurt you… and I wanted to, well, get back to him for that. But suddenly we landed in bed together. He was more interesting than expected and I suddenly got involved… in whatever it is.”
Jun stared at Nino in surprise, obviously not even understanding one word from Nino’s story. “Who did hurt me?” he finally picked up the part Nino dreaded the most.
“Your ex-boyfriend.” Nino answered warily. “I’m so sorry Jun. I didn’t plan to sleep with him. I was drunk and he was so pretty, and alluring, and interesting. It was like falling down somewhere, like bungee jumping. I’m so sorry. Please, please forgive me. Please, I beg you!”
Jun blinked in obvious confusion, tilting his head a bit, like he couldn’t even remember. “Which ex-boyfriend are you talking about?”
What the hell was going on here?
“Sakurai Sho-san.” Nino answered honestly, rubbing over his head tiredly. He frowned a bit when a sudden pain overwhelmed him. First he thought that Jun had hit him, but then he realized that it didn’t come from Jun, the pain came from inside him. He cringed in pain, gritting his teeth to not cry at that feeling.
“KAZU!” Jun jumped up in shock, tugging at his friend’s arm. “What? What’s happening?”
~~~
“I can’t believe you had a panic attack.” Ohno snorted a bit. “Jun almost had a nervous breakdown because of that.”
“I’m sorry.” Nino sighed a bit, feeling too tired to tease Ohno back or to say something biting. He had just woken up and threw up for almost two hours. “It just overwhelmed me.”
“Seriously, Kazu.” Ohno was earnest all of a sudden. “You need to get rid of this emotional baggage. It’s not like you to crumble under problems. So, since we're alone, tell me what happened. Every detail. I want to know it now and I won’t accept any excuses. You will tell me. After all, I’m for sure not involved.”
“But Jun-”
“Jun is not here. I sent him to get some coffee. He was way too worried to stay calm.”
Nino looked at Ohno warily, not sure what he should do now. But there is something about Ohno which makes him crumble immediately. Only Ohno could do that to him, to make him talk without forcing him to or without convincing him for hours. And so he did. He told him everything that happened during the last few weeks, starting with the day he arrived and witnessed the strange meeting between Sho and Jun in the library up until the day Sho dumped him and he had an emotional breakdown.
Ohno listened patiently, his thoughts obviously circling around what Nino had told him, then he smiled slightly. “So you fell in love?”
“Weren’t you listening?” Nino asked in frustration.
“Oh, I was listening, very well.” Ohno smiled warmly. “You like Sakurai-san, even though he broke your heart and though he is Jun’s ex-boyfriend. It just makes me wonder why Jun never talked about him or why I never met those two together. I mean, he did have the one or other one-night stand, until he met Aiba-kun. But a serious relationship with Sakurai-san? Are you sure that they were together, Kazu?”
“Yes.” Nino nodded his head. “Sho-kun is still feeling so protective over him. It seemed to be a really deep relationship. He was so mad. I can’t even understand myself. How could I do that to Jun? If this whole mess means love, then, thank you, I pass!”
Ohno blinked, tilting his head. Nino wasn’t quite so sure what he was thinking. Hopefully he wouldn’t tell Jun about it, but before he could make him promise, Ohno had already taken his hand into his. His reassuring words were dripping down on Nino, telling him that everyone still loves him, until he finally fell asleep.
~~~
Nino was still supposed to take it calmly and not stress himself. Clear order from the doctor. And from Jun, who was a lot more dangerous and stricter than any doctor could be. So Nino decided to listen once in his life and was lying on the sofa in his and Jun’s room. The sun was shining outside and he had his eyes closed. He just didn’t feel like seeing anything or anyone right now.
When he heard the door to their room opening, he was pretty sure that it was Jun. Or maybe Aiba or Ohno.
That was until he heard a very specific and well-known voice.
“Jun’s my cousin.”
Nino jumped in shock when he heard Sho’s voice next to him, his stomach cringing in sudden pain. He was almost afraid that he might throw up again. Then the words the other had said finally sunk in. “What?”
Sho sighed. “Care for a tea? My treat. And don’t worry, it’s not far away. I’m just going to take you to the dormitory’s cafeteria.”
~~~
Awkward silence. The kind of silence Nino hated the most, awkward, nerve-wracking, annoying. “Cousins?” he finally broke the silence, shifting his cup of tea in his hands and still trying to grasp what Sho had said to him earlier.
Sho bit his lip before he let out a sigh. “Yes. Jun is my cousin. I'm very protective of him, though he hates it. He is like a brother for me. We had a fight because of that right before you arrived here… I guess that’s the reason why he didn’t introduce me to you. You know, we grew up very close and Jun spent a lot of time with my family during holidays. I guess you know that, right?”
Nino nodded his head warily, remembering how Jun had always gone away for holidays for several weeks. His relatives had been rather wealthy and often invited him to travel with them. Now that he remembered this, he could even recall that he had also met Sho several times, when he had been visiting Jun’s family. A very awkward and shy Sho. So completely different to the Sho now. And Jun has always referred to him as my cousin not as Sho. Nino sighed deeply. “That’s the reason you looked kinda familiar.”
Sho looked down at his fingers nervously. “I thought you were messing around with Jun.” he admitted quietly, sounding embarrassed all of a sudden. “I heard from my friends that you were going out quite a lot and I was worried about Jun. I told you that I feel quite protective over him.”
“But-” Nino shook his head. “I wasn’t with Jun. Never. He's been my best friend since we were kids.” He paused, trying to recollect all the things that had happened during the last few weeks. Then he sighed slightly. “Oh, shit. The day when you saw us in the restaurant and I was flirting with Jun-”
“Yes.”
For a moment, Nino was speechless at his own stupidity. So, the only reason Sho was so mad and hurt him like that, was because he thought he was originally dating Jun and betraying him with other guys? And it was all his fault for pretending to be Jun’s boyfriend! Screw his own lies! “I was just acting. I thought you were his ex-boyfriend and hurt him and I wanted to get back at you for it. That’s why I pretended to be his new and better boyfriend.” He explained. “Oh man, I can’t even believe it. This is too many misunderstandings. Do you even believe me, Sho-kun?”
“Of course I do. Besides that, I already know the truth.” Sho answered quietly.
Nino looked at Sho in surprise. “Eh? How?”
“Jun told me.” Sho explained warily. “Apparently, he got to know from Ohno-kun and came straight to my place. He is pretty straightforward, well you know that for sure, and can get quite angry occasionally – especially when it’s me. He blamed me for everything, of course, and yelled at me for hurting you and for messing with your feelings. I think he spent almost an hour telling me how stupid and how much of a jerk I am.” He chuckled a bit. “He set a new record with that.”
“Wait-” Nino blushed slightly. Ohno told Jun? And it was Jun who solved this whole misunderstanding? How freaking embarrassing! And messing with his feelings? So Sho did know everything!? Absolutely everything! Great, thanks for keeping my secret, Satoshi! “You know-“ Nino began carefully, too exhausted for any games or lies. “I guess I do have feelings for you, but I can understand if it was only a once in a lifetime for you. It would just be nice, if you, well, could-” he paused, searching for the right words. “- respect my feelings and not throw them away. I mean it. Honestly.”
There was a pause in which Sho looked at him for a while, through those deep and pretty eyes of his, the ones Nino could get lost in so easily. How the hell was he supposed to get over this guy now?
“I’m sorry for what I said last week. After we had sex.” Sho finally said. “That was a very, very low blow and I don’t even know how to apologize for it. I was mad, mostly at myself, and let all my wrath out on you, a weak point of my character by the way. Jun is right. I hope you can forgive me for that.” he admitted much to Nino’s surprise. “I wanted to check you out of course… well, you know my reasons by now. But I didn’t intend to play with your feelings. I didn’t want to use you in any way. It’s true that I checked on you and got some information from other students.” He smiled. “Just like you did. To be honest, I just…I couldn’t help it. You were fun to be with and I had a good time. The whisky, the atmosphere added to it. On top of that, you are pretty good-looking and not a bad guy. I was surprised by how smart you actually are and – well – I did feel attracted to you. That’s why I went with the flow when you kissed me.” He paused, before he added. “And just so you know: I don’t do one-night-stands.”
Nino stayed silent for a moment, still too shocked to think properly. He needed to sort his thoughts. Too many revealing information at once. So first of all, this here was all a misunderstanding. They both had been totally stupid and misinterpreted a totally simple situation? And they could have avoided all this shit?
I don’t do one-night-stands. What the hell was that supposed to mean now!? Who could even read such words properly?
“You and Jun have some similarities.” He complained.
Sho smiled slightly. “Better don’t tell Jun that at the moment, maybe in two weeks when I have managed to settle our fight. That’s normally the time it takes. Just a friendly advice from my side.”
Nino smiled. It was not like him to ponder over so many things. When he thought about how much he has changed during the last weeks, he laughed a bit, the gloomy thoughts finally dissipating a bit. “Sho-kun-“ he paused, eyeing Sho insistently. “Do you, in any way, like me or am I just wasting my effort right now?”
“I told you.” Sho said calmly and leaned back a bit. There it was again, this inscrutable expression. So annoying, but at the same time so alluring. “I don’t do one-night-stands. Never.”
Okay. Never. So did that mean- How should he know what it meant!? Nino brushed through is hair, chuckling slightly. Out of desperation or relief, he didn’t know. “You really were a jerk, you know that? Well, I guess I would have done the same thing when I believe someone would hurt a person close to me. Damn, what should I say, I did something very similar – after all I wanted to use you too. So I guess I’m not that much better.” He smiled, looking at Sho directly now. “Still, you are a prick sometimes!”
“Nothing new. You're not the first to tell me that.” Sho answered dryly. “So anything else to say? Or is that your only complaint?”
Nino grinned at that, leaning back. Sho was able to catch up, definitely. He could like that. “You said you did feel attracted towards me. What about now?”
“Hm-“ Sho tilted his head a bit, a wary smile on his lips. “You still owe me that stupid game of yours.” He suggested much to Nino’s delight.
His heart jumped in happiness. It felt like it was too early for that. He should probably talk to Jun before (and bear with his complaints about why he wanted to date that guy) or Ohno (who would probably not say much). He should try to heal his mind and heart a bit. But unfortunately, his heart just didn’t listen to him.
“That is, if you still want me of course.” Sho continued, like he didn’t know how much Nino actually still wanted him. It’s like his feelings were growing with every day. “There is just one condition-”
“What is it?” Nino asked curiously.
“I don’t like to share.” Sho said firmly, a sudden amused glint in his eyes. “If you touch any other guys, I’m going to kick your pretty butt.”
Nino laughed. Full-heartedly. For the first time in weeks, he felt all free again.
Goodbye old life.