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The taming of the shrew: Chapter 8 (Sakumoto)
Title: The taming of the shrew: Chapter 8/18
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
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little_kirin
Genre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
He tries not to show it but during the next days he feels almost numb. It’s like he can’t even feel something, like even the tiniest feeling just got erased, and even his skin feels numb. When his bandmates and friends talk, he isn’t able to follow their conversation. At least he can dance while they study their new choreography. It’s the best distraction he knows. But because it’s by far not enough distraction, he agrees do Aiba’s and Ohno’s drinking invitation.
Aiba is one of the most sensitive persons he knows and he is also one of the nicest persons. And together with Ohno it’s even better. Because as much sweet fun Aiba brings as much casual calmness Ohno makes him feel. It’s so soothing to go out with them.
Ohno obviously tries to fill him up with tequila, but although Jun normally loves a good drink, it just tastes like nothing at all at the moment. The worst thing is though that although he is here and with his friends, and although deep inside he is so angry at what Sho did in their past, he just misses him like crazy right now.
Aiba pokes his forehead and brings him back to reality. “You are doooozing off…” he slurs. “You are so cute~”
Ohno grins. “Super-cute.”
“Don’t encourage him,” Jun argues, but can’t help a smile.
“Wow,” Aiba chirps. “Finally, the man smiled. Aw, our baby smiled.”
Jun frowns. “Who are you calling baby, you silly little idiot.”
Aiba and Ohno share a glance, then they burst into laughter. For a moment Jun tries to be annoyed, but he can’t help it. He can’t be mad at these two idiots who are so nice and supportive. Always.
“Hey Jun,” Ohno says when Aiba heads to the toilet. He pats his hand softly. “You haven’t been smiling much lately. Is something off?”
Jun shrugs. What is he supposed to say? It’s too private, even though this is Ohno, and he can tell him everything.
“Is it because of Sho-kun?” Ohno pushes him further.
Jun blushes slightly and curses inwardly at the same time. Why again does his face give his emotions away so easily? He really needs to work on his poker face again. “It’s not that simple,” he finally admits. “I wish I could blame it all on Sho-san, but to be honest, it’s my fault too. I didn’t talk about things I should have, before I got together with him. I decided to ignore the obvious instead of approaching it. I’m stupid.”
“Jun,” Ohno says softly. “You are not stupid. And I’m sure Sho loves you. No, I know he does. He even told me. I don’t know where your problem comes from, but be reassured that you can always talk to me, no matter what it is, okay?”
For a moment Jun feels overwhelmed by so much kindness. Does he really deserve that much? He is almost allured to tell Ohno his problems, but if he learnt one thing during the last weeks, then that his problems with Sho belong to him and Sho only. They need to solve them by themselves if they want to move on together. Hence he smiles carefully and nods, not able to say anything. For Ohno it’s apparently answer enough, because he smiles warmly and squeezes Jun’s hand once more before he lets go.
~~~
When Jun gets back home, the light in the living room is still on and Sho suddenly stands in front of him. Sho frowns, crossing his arms in front of his body. “Where have you been?”
“Hello to you too,” Jun mumbles, trying to suppress his anger about Sho’s passive-aggressive greeting. He is not in a particularly good place anyway at the moment, and he has that uncomfortable feeling that even the slightest of Sho’s words can tick him off.
“What kind of game are you actually playing?” Sho wants to know, eyeing Jun thoughtfully. “You’ve hardly been talking to me during the last days.”
Jun pulls an eyebrow up. “Game? I am the one playing a game?”
“Well, I for one was waiting for you at home,” Sho breaths out, his voice slightly hoarse. “You didn’t even bother to call.”
“I was out with Riida and Masaki, alright?” Jun huffs while he throws his jacket on the sofa.
“With Riida and... Masaki?” Something in Sho’s eyes flickers.
The feeling of irritation and anger Jun had the moment he entered the room, is suddenly hitting him with full force by the suggestive tone in Sho’s voice. “Sho-san,” he hisses. “Don’t talk to me like I’m your subordinate. Or son. Or whatever. Say what you want to say or shut up!”
“No one tells me to shut up,” Sho blurts out, finally raising his voice. “And you have a history with Masaki! I’ve at least the right to know that you go out with him.”
Jun spins around. “Sho!” he yells. “Masaki is our friend! I’ve kissed him once, before the both of us got together. So don’t dare to drag him into your shit!”
“So it’s my shit now?” Sho blurts out.
Jun shrugs.
“I love Masaki,” Sho intervenes angrily. “But I don’t trust you with him.”
“Are you fucking serious? You have no reason not to trust me,” Jun huffs in anger, biting down on his lips as he can feel how they start quivering. “What’s wrong with you!?”
“No reason?” Sho frowns. “It’s not like you have always been so honest to me! After all you are seeing a therapist since weeks. Secretly!“
“Yeah,” Jun hisses. “Because that’s even remotely similar to the many lies you told me before!”
Sho winces, his eyes wide for a moment, before he gets his calm back. “Still, you hid it from me.”
“Yeah, maybe you think Toshida-sensei is just another guy I’m making out with or fuck? After all I can’t be trusted,” Jun breaths out. “Just like you think I might jump Masaki-kun, our friend! But maybe you would rather like to tell me what you do when you go out? ”
“Jun,” Sho says sharply. “What do you mean?”
“Nothing you would understand,” Jun huffs. Somewhere far away in his twisted mind he actually feels almost relieved… the numb feeling he had during the last days is making place for other feelings, though not positive ones… but feelings. He can feel something. He feels like screaming and crying at the same time. Well, at least that’s better than not feeling anything at all.
“Stop talking to me like that!” Sho’s voice is an octave higher than before, and Jun just throws him a glare.
“Oh shut up,” he hisses, before he grabs his keys and wallet and heads out of the apartment. He is going to sleep at his own place tonight. Something beneath his ears hammers, so much that he doesn’t hear anything else. He remotely feels like Sho calls his name, and that later his phone rings, but until he gets out of the taxi and closes the door behind him, there is basically no sound penetrating his ears. It’s only when he finally is alone in his apartment that it comes crushing down on him.
“Shit,” Jun mumbles. Now that escalated way too fast, and he can’t even blame it all on Sho. It’s so much easier to blame someone else, but he overreacted way too much and too fast himself. For a moment he wonders if he should call Ohno and take him up on his promise, but then he decides not to. This is really his personal shit right now, and he needs to at least try to work on it alone before asking for help.
Hence he grabs a bottle of wine and drops down on the sofa, deciding to drown his guilty and depressed feelings in wine. He doesn’t even realize that he starts crying.
A/N: Drama, baby, drama!! They are back to arguing, and it's such a petty argument. >< It's like a oulet for their feelings when they don't know what else to do...
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
Beta:
little_kirinGenre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
He tries not to show it but during the next days he feels almost numb. It’s like he can’t even feel something, like even the tiniest feeling just got erased, and even his skin feels numb. When his bandmates and friends talk, he isn’t able to follow their conversation. At least he can dance while they study their new choreography. It’s the best distraction he knows. But because it’s by far not enough distraction, he agrees do Aiba’s and Ohno’s drinking invitation.
Aiba is one of the most sensitive persons he knows and he is also one of the nicest persons. And together with Ohno it’s even better. Because as much sweet fun Aiba brings as much casual calmness Ohno makes him feel. It’s so soothing to go out with them.
Ohno obviously tries to fill him up with tequila, but although Jun normally loves a good drink, it just tastes like nothing at all at the moment. The worst thing is though that although he is here and with his friends, and although deep inside he is so angry at what Sho did in their past, he just misses him like crazy right now.
Aiba pokes his forehead and brings him back to reality. “You are doooozing off…” he slurs. “You are so cute~”
Ohno grins. “Super-cute.”
“Don’t encourage him,” Jun argues, but can’t help a smile.
“Wow,” Aiba chirps. “Finally, the man smiled. Aw, our baby smiled.”
Jun frowns. “Who are you calling baby, you silly little idiot.”
Aiba and Ohno share a glance, then they burst into laughter. For a moment Jun tries to be annoyed, but he can’t help it. He can’t be mad at these two idiots who are so nice and supportive. Always.
“Hey Jun,” Ohno says when Aiba heads to the toilet. He pats his hand softly. “You haven’t been smiling much lately. Is something off?”
Jun shrugs. What is he supposed to say? It’s too private, even though this is Ohno, and he can tell him everything.
“Is it because of Sho-kun?” Ohno pushes him further.
Jun blushes slightly and curses inwardly at the same time. Why again does his face give his emotions away so easily? He really needs to work on his poker face again. “It’s not that simple,” he finally admits. “I wish I could blame it all on Sho-san, but to be honest, it’s my fault too. I didn’t talk about things I should have, before I got together with him. I decided to ignore the obvious instead of approaching it. I’m stupid.”
“Jun,” Ohno says softly. “You are not stupid. And I’m sure Sho loves you. No, I know he does. He even told me. I don’t know where your problem comes from, but be reassured that you can always talk to me, no matter what it is, okay?”
For a moment Jun feels overwhelmed by so much kindness. Does he really deserve that much? He is almost allured to tell Ohno his problems, but if he learnt one thing during the last weeks, then that his problems with Sho belong to him and Sho only. They need to solve them by themselves if they want to move on together. Hence he smiles carefully and nods, not able to say anything. For Ohno it’s apparently answer enough, because he smiles warmly and squeezes Jun’s hand once more before he lets go.
~~~
When Jun gets back home, the light in the living room is still on and Sho suddenly stands in front of him. Sho frowns, crossing his arms in front of his body. “Where have you been?”
“Hello to you too,” Jun mumbles, trying to suppress his anger about Sho’s passive-aggressive greeting. He is not in a particularly good place anyway at the moment, and he has that uncomfortable feeling that even the slightest of Sho’s words can tick him off.
“What kind of game are you actually playing?” Sho wants to know, eyeing Jun thoughtfully. “You’ve hardly been talking to me during the last days.”
Jun pulls an eyebrow up. “Game? I am the one playing a game?”
“Well, I for one was waiting for you at home,” Sho breaths out, his voice slightly hoarse. “You didn’t even bother to call.”
“I was out with Riida and Masaki, alright?” Jun huffs while he throws his jacket on the sofa.
“With Riida and... Masaki?” Something in Sho’s eyes flickers.
The feeling of irritation and anger Jun had the moment he entered the room, is suddenly hitting him with full force by the suggestive tone in Sho’s voice. “Sho-san,” he hisses. “Don’t talk to me like I’m your subordinate. Or son. Or whatever. Say what you want to say or shut up!”
“No one tells me to shut up,” Sho blurts out, finally raising his voice. “And you have a history with Masaki! I’ve at least the right to know that you go out with him.”
Jun spins around. “Sho!” he yells. “Masaki is our friend! I’ve kissed him once, before the both of us got together. So don’t dare to drag him into your shit!”
“So it’s my shit now?” Sho blurts out.
Jun shrugs.
“I love Masaki,” Sho intervenes angrily. “But I don’t trust you with him.”
“Are you fucking serious? You have no reason not to trust me,” Jun huffs in anger, biting down on his lips as he can feel how they start quivering. “What’s wrong with you!?”
“No reason?” Sho frowns. “It’s not like you have always been so honest to me! After all you are seeing a therapist since weeks. Secretly!“
“Yeah,” Jun hisses. “Because that’s even remotely similar to the many lies you told me before!”
Sho winces, his eyes wide for a moment, before he gets his calm back. “Still, you hid it from me.”
“Yeah, maybe you think Toshida-sensei is just another guy I’m making out with or fuck? After all I can’t be trusted,” Jun breaths out. “Just like you think I might jump Masaki-kun, our friend! But maybe you would rather like to tell me what you do when you go out? ”
“Jun,” Sho says sharply. “What do you mean?”
“Nothing you would understand,” Jun huffs. Somewhere far away in his twisted mind he actually feels almost relieved… the numb feeling he had during the last days is making place for other feelings, though not positive ones… but feelings. He can feel something. He feels like screaming and crying at the same time. Well, at least that’s better than not feeling anything at all.
“Stop talking to me like that!” Sho’s voice is an octave higher than before, and Jun just throws him a glare.
“Oh shut up,” he hisses, before he grabs his keys and wallet and heads out of the apartment. He is going to sleep at his own place tonight. Something beneath his ears hammers, so much that he doesn’t hear anything else. He remotely feels like Sho calls his name, and that later his phone rings, but until he gets out of the taxi and closes the door behind him, there is basically no sound penetrating his ears. It’s only when he finally is alone in his apartment that it comes crushing down on him.
“Shit,” Jun mumbles. Now that escalated way too fast, and he can’t even blame it all on Sho. It’s so much easier to blame someone else, but he overreacted way too much and too fast himself. For a moment he wonders if he should call Ohno and take him up on his promise, but then he decides not to. This is really his personal shit right now, and he needs to at least try to work on it alone before asking for help.
Hence he grabs a bottle of wine and drops down on the sofa, deciding to drown his guilty and depressed feelings in wine. He doesn’t even realize that he starts crying.
A/N: Drama, baby, drama!! They are back to arguing, and it's such a petty argument. >< It's like a oulet for their feelings when they don't know what else to do...