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yume_to_ameTitle: The taming of the shrew: Chapter 10/18
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
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little_kirin
Genre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
Jun realizes that it’s not as always. Normally when they vented their anger out like this, they would just accept it and not even mention it, but now that their relationship has begun to continuously change, things are different.
It’s late morning when Jun finally wakes up, the space next to him is empty, but he can hear the noise of the TV coming from the living room. Sho probably got up earlier. For a moment Jun feels at loss… what now? What did they normally do when they jumped each other and vented out their anger through sex? It’s only a few weeks ago, but he can’t even remember what they did afterwards and how they faced each other.
Jun sighs slightly, deciding he needs a shower first and freshen himself up, otherwise he won’t be able to form a coherent thought. His muscles are aching, doing it on the floor was probably a shitty idea to begin with. Well, not that anyone of them was even remotely at the place to even think about that.
The warm water on his body feels good, and makes his muscles relax. The numb feeling slowly passes. He switches into fresh clothes and finally feels ready to face his lover. He finds Sho in the living room, staring at the TV. “I didn’t know you were into magical girl anime,” Jun analyses with a grin.
Sho is a bit startled, before he looks at Jun and then back to the TV where a bunch of girls in short colorful skirts jump around and shoot hearts at a monster. He blushes slightly. “Oh,” he stutters. “I didn’t even realize I was watching this garbage.”
Jun smiles and sits down next to him, wrapping his arms around Sho. Sho blinks in surprise. Then he turns his head and takes the invitation. He kisses Jun softly. “How do you feel?” he wants to know.
“Regarding the circumstances, okay.” Jun admits honestly. “I’m glad we are free today. I would have had no idea how to practice my dance steps now.”
“You should have stayed in bed,” Sho scolds him. “I told you not to get up before lunch!”
Jun smiles a bit. “I needed to get up,” he finally admits.
“Why?”
Jun shrugs. “I wanted to see you and talk to you.”
Sho nods, his lips shivering slightly. “I did let myself get drawn into it again,” he finally says sadly. “I should have controlled myself more.”
“It’s not your fault.” Jun points out firmly. “You came here and wanted to talk… and… well… after all this time I know exactly how to push you.”
“Macchan,” Sho says softly after a while. It feels weird for him to use his old nickname, but Jun assumes it’s probably because he is going to touch a sore topic. “I know, I overreacted yesterday, my fucking stupid jealousy, it's so out of place sometimes. But…” He pauses like he is carefully searching for words. “There is a reason you were so sensitive to my words yesterday, isn’t it? You were completely tensed, and snapped at me almost immediately. It was like you only waited for me to say something wrong.”
Jun’s feeling proved him right. Sho was carefully trying to get down to a problem. He doesn’t need to be that careful though. Besides... he is right. “Sho-san.” Jun entwines their fingers. “To be honest, I’ve started to like us more when we don’t angry-fuck each other.”
Sho smiles slightly. “Me too. But that’s not an answer.”
Jun shrugs. “Somehow it is?” he offers carefully.
“Not really,” Sho chuckles, and pulls Jun down with him on the sofa, snuggling up against him. “But it’s more than anything we’ve talked to each other ever before.”
“Yes, we need to watch out not to get too honest and mushy,” Jun jokes and it finally draws a laugh from Sho.
“Yes, imagine us talking about feelings all the time,” Sho teases. For a while he stays quiet, just nuzzling his nose into Jun’s freshly washed hair. Then he takes a deep breath. “You need to tell me at one point… what it is that bothers you... about us,” he finally says. “I mean, it’s okay for now, because I don’t think we’ve ever talked as much to each other as we did during the last week. And I like this direction we are going to. But at one point you need to tell me the whole truth.”
“I will,” Jun promises after a while. “I just want to set my thoughts straight before that. You saw yesterday how easily I still get confused. Toshida-sensei will not be happy with me.”
Sho smiles. “Say Jun… can’t I go with you?”
Jun blushes deeply. “Isn’t that too embarrassing?”
“You mean more embarrassing than feeling like I just raped my lover?”
“Sakurai Sho-san!” Jun huffs and grabs Sho’s arm to turn him around so that he is looking at him directly. “You didn’t do anything against my will, you idiot! Don’t you dare making me a victim here! I’m just breaking you back as much as you break me. You understand? If you ever say something like that again, I will get fucking mad, I swear. And you can search for a better place to put your dick into! I mean it!”
Sho blinks for a moment, then he snorts. “Put my dick into? I thought you were an eloquent talker," he teases, and Jun can't help a chuckle. "We really are a fucked up couple,” Sho continues with a half-serious, half-teasing smile. “Just imagine what Nino-kun would say if he heard us.”
“Or Ohno-san,” Jun points out.
“Ugh,” Sho shivers. “No thanks. It’s better they don’t know too many details.”
Jun laughs. “True.” For a while he looks at Sho’s face, eyeing the little wrinkles around his eyes, his full cheeks and his beautiful eyes. He hasn’t realized up to now that he actually really likes watching him. “I…” he pauses. “Truth be told, Toshida-sensei already told me that I should take you along at one point. I will,” he promise. “Give me a few more sessions with him, to talk with him about how it should work and what I should do then.”
“Fine.” Sho wraps his arm around his waist, and smiles. “This is actually more than I expected.”
“What did you expect?” Jun wants to know.
Sho grins. “A blunt no way, you idiot.”
Ugh. He really is a bit too harsh towards Sho, it seems. “I’m sorry for being such a difficult prick recently,” he admits.
“Not at all.” Sho says calmly. “In terms of being a prick, I’m way above you. I’m definitely taking the crown.”
“Typical you,” Jun jokes. “You are such a sore loser. You always want to win.”
Sho giggles.
~~~
“You have an appointment today?” Sho wants to know.
“Yes,” Jun sighs slightly. “I really don’t want to cancel on Toshida-sensei though I wish I could hide from him today. But I think it’s really important to see him, particularly today.”
"Fine, I'll take you," Sho says casually.
Jun blinks in confusion. "Huh?"
“No way I’m letting you drive,” Sho says firmly.
“Sho-san,” Jun chuckles. “I’m not a helpless princess that needs to be saved from the dragon and carried around by a bunch of servants. I can definitely drive.”
“I said no and I meant no,” Sho points out. “You hardly slept and I want to satisfy my conscience. Grab your things, I’ll take you.”
Jun blinks in surprise once more, but before he says anything, Sho grabs his face and kisses him, and he just has to return the kiss. “Listen, Jun-san, I will just be there and wait for you, okay?" Sho mumbles against his lips. "And when you are finished we can drive home and have a late lunch. I’ll not interrupt your talk with him, I promise. I won't be in your way there, and I won't trick you into anything.”
“I don’t think you would,” Jun points out with a shy smile. “I know you would never do that. But is it really alright for you? You could do something else while I’m out. Isn’t it boring to wait?”
“No way.” Sho grabs his keys and jacket. “You know I’m stubborn as hell, much more even than you. So there is no way to argue with me.”
"I knew it. A sore loser." Jun chuckles slightly. “Okay,” he finally agrees. “Come with me.”
A/N: Does Sho driving Jun count as him visiting the therapist too? XD So, in the end they somehow talked, but at the same time, they didn't really talk. It's probably too difficult for Jun to voice his fears, and Sho doesn't seem to have an idea what's really bothering Jun, or has he?
This reminds me... I've written a few chapters in advance, and I'm afraid I might do something mean in a few chapters *hint* *bringonthedrama*
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
Beta:
little_kirinGenre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
Jun realizes that it’s not as always. Normally when they vented their anger out like this, they would just accept it and not even mention it, but now that their relationship has begun to continuously change, things are different.
It’s late morning when Jun finally wakes up, the space next to him is empty, but he can hear the noise of the TV coming from the living room. Sho probably got up earlier. For a moment Jun feels at loss… what now? What did they normally do when they jumped each other and vented out their anger through sex? It’s only a few weeks ago, but he can’t even remember what they did afterwards and how they faced each other.
Jun sighs slightly, deciding he needs a shower first and freshen himself up, otherwise he won’t be able to form a coherent thought. His muscles are aching, doing it on the floor was probably a shitty idea to begin with. Well, not that anyone of them was even remotely at the place to even think about that.
The warm water on his body feels good, and makes his muscles relax. The numb feeling slowly passes. He switches into fresh clothes and finally feels ready to face his lover. He finds Sho in the living room, staring at the TV. “I didn’t know you were into magical girl anime,” Jun analyses with a grin.
Sho is a bit startled, before he looks at Jun and then back to the TV where a bunch of girls in short colorful skirts jump around and shoot hearts at a monster. He blushes slightly. “Oh,” he stutters. “I didn’t even realize I was watching this garbage.”
Jun smiles and sits down next to him, wrapping his arms around Sho. Sho blinks in surprise. Then he turns his head and takes the invitation. He kisses Jun softly. “How do you feel?” he wants to know.
“Regarding the circumstances, okay.” Jun admits honestly. “I’m glad we are free today. I would have had no idea how to practice my dance steps now.”
“You should have stayed in bed,” Sho scolds him. “I told you not to get up before lunch!”
Jun smiles a bit. “I needed to get up,” he finally admits.
“Why?”
Jun shrugs. “I wanted to see you and talk to you.”
Sho nods, his lips shivering slightly. “I did let myself get drawn into it again,” he finally says sadly. “I should have controlled myself more.”
“It’s not your fault.” Jun points out firmly. “You came here and wanted to talk… and… well… after all this time I know exactly how to push you.”
“Macchan,” Sho says softly after a while. It feels weird for him to use his old nickname, but Jun assumes it’s probably because he is going to touch a sore topic. “I know, I overreacted yesterday, my fucking stupid jealousy, it's so out of place sometimes. But…” He pauses like he is carefully searching for words. “There is a reason you were so sensitive to my words yesterday, isn’t it? You were completely tensed, and snapped at me almost immediately. It was like you only waited for me to say something wrong.”
Jun’s feeling proved him right. Sho was carefully trying to get down to a problem. He doesn’t need to be that careful though. Besides... he is right. “Sho-san.” Jun entwines their fingers. “To be honest, I’ve started to like us more when we don’t angry-fuck each other.”
Sho smiles slightly. “Me too. But that’s not an answer.”
Jun shrugs. “Somehow it is?” he offers carefully.
“Not really,” Sho chuckles, and pulls Jun down with him on the sofa, snuggling up against him. “But it’s more than anything we’ve talked to each other ever before.”
“Yes, we need to watch out not to get too honest and mushy,” Jun jokes and it finally draws a laugh from Sho.
“Yes, imagine us talking about feelings all the time,” Sho teases. For a while he stays quiet, just nuzzling his nose into Jun’s freshly washed hair. Then he takes a deep breath. “You need to tell me at one point… what it is that bothers you... about us,” he finally says. “I mean, it’s okay for now, because I don’t think we’ve ever talked as much to each other as we did during the last week. And I like this direction we are going to. But at one point you need to tell me the whole truth.”
“I will,” Jun promises after a while. “I just want to set my thoughts straight before that. You saw yesterday how easily I still get confused. Toshida-sensei will not be happy with me.”
Sho smiles. “Say Jun… can’t I go with you?”
Jun blushes deeply. “Isn’t that too embarrassing?”
“You mean more embarrassing than feeling like I just raped my lover?”
“Sakurai Sho-san!” Jun huffs and grabs Sho’s arm to turn him around so that he is looking at him directly. “You didn’t do anything against my will, you idiot! Don’t you dare making me a victim here! I’m just breaking you back as much as you break me. You understand? If you ever say something like that again, I will get fucking mad, I swear. And you can search for a better place to put your dick into! I mean it!”
Sho blinks for a moment, then he snorts. “Put my dick into? I thought you were an eloquent talker," he teases, and Jun can't help a chuckle. "We really are a fucked up couple,” Sho continues with a half-serious, half-teasing smile. “Just imagine what Nino-kun would say if he heard us.”
“Or Ohno-san,” Jun points out.
“Ugh,” Sho shivers. “No thanks. It’s better they don’t know too many details.”
Jun laughs. “True.” For a while he looks at Sho’s face, eyeing the little wrinkles around his eyes, his full cheeks and his beautiful eyes. He hasn’t realized up to now that he actually really likes watching him. “I…” he pauses. “Truth be told, Toshida-sensei already told me that I should take you along at one point. I will,” he promise. “Give me a few more sessions with him, to talk with him about how it should work and what I should do then.”
“Fine.” Sho wraps his arm around his waist, and smiles. “This is actually more than I expected.”
“What did you expect?” Jun wants to know.
Sho grins. “A blunt no way, you idiot.”
Ugh. He really is a bit too harsh towards Sho, it seems. “I’m sorry for being such a difficult prick recently,” he admits.
“Not at all.” Sho says calmly. “In terms of being a prick, I’m way above you. I’m definitely taking the crown.”
“Typical you,” Jun jokes. “You are such a sore loser. You always want to win.”
Sho giggles.
~~~
“You have an appointment today?” Sho wants to know.
“Yes,” Jun sighs slightly. “I really don’t want to cancel on Toshida-sensei though I wish I could hide from him today. But I think it’s really important to see him, particularly today.”
"Fine, I'll take you," Sho says casually.
Jun blinks in confusion. "Huh?"
“No way I’m letting you drive,” Sho says firmly.
“Sho-san,” Jun chuckles. “I’m not a helpless princess that needs to be saved from the dragon and carried around by a bunch of servants. I can definitely drive.”
“I said no and I meant no,” Sho points out. “You hardly slept and I want to satisfy my conscience. Grab your things, I’ll take you.”
Jun blinks in surprise once more, but before he says anything, Sho grabs his face and kisses him, and he just has to return the kiss. “Listen, Jun-san, I will just be there and wait for you, okay?" Sho mumbles against his lips. "And when you are finished we can drive home and have a late lunch. I’ll not interrupt your talk with him, I promise. I won't be in your way there, and I won't trick you into anything.”
“I don’t think you would,” Jun points out with a shy smile. “I know you would never do that. But is it really alright for you? You could do something else while I’m out. Isn’t it boring to wait?”
“No way.” Sho grabs his keys and jacket. “You know I’m stubborn as hell, much more even than you. So there is no way to argue with me.”
"I knew it. A sore loser." Jun chuckles slightly. “Okay,” he finally agrees. “Come with me.”
A/N: Does Sho driving Jun count as him visiting the therapist too? XD So, in the end they somehow talked, but at the same time, they didn't really talk. It's probably too difficult for Jun to voice his fears, and Sho doesn't seem to have an idea what's really bothering Jun, or has he?
This reminds me... I've written a few chapters in advance, and I'm afraid I might do something mean in a few chapters *hint* *bringonthedrama*
