Sound of Silence Chapter 6

[lilly0]

Title: Sound of Silence 6/?
Pairing: Sakumoto, guests appearances by the rest of Arashi (maybe with a surprise side-pairing ;-)), and some others
Rating: up to R
Genre: AU, romance, maybe a bit suspense
Plot: It's in the middle of the night when Sho, a wealthy young business man, stumbles over an unconscious young man, beaten up and curled up in a dark alley. Tired from the way his life goes Sho decides to do something good and takes the man home. Once he wakes up however Sho realizes that the young man has forgotten all about his past, everything he is, and has lost his voice too. Everything that remained from his existence is his name: Matsumoto Jun. But who is he? What happened to him? Why was he lying on the street, beaten-up? And what kind of trauma did he encounter to loose his voice?
Note: This is the story that won the poll on my journal ^^ So, I had started writing it before the poll, kind of lost motivation in the middle of it and then with everyone's encouragement I picked it up again, and voilà :D  I hope this is going to be really interesting for you! There is some suspense in it, and we'll gradually uncover Jun's past.

Jun and Sho cook together, which basically means that Jun prevents Sho from doing anything and only hands him the less important tasks. He can cut an onion without ruining the food, can he? While this might be true Jun soon realizes that Sho indeed won’t ruin the food, but unfortunately himself.

 

“Oh,” Sho makes in surprise and holds his finger up in the air. He chuckles. “I’m such a fool.”

 

Jun blinks, not really irritated or worried first until he sees the trail of blood, running down Sho’s finger. Oh my god! Jun lets out a panicked sound, whishing more than anytime else to be able to talk, because damn it, how hurt is Sho? Is it just a tiny cut or…? Jun drops everything and hurries to Sho’s side, grabbing his hand and pulling him towards the sink to clean the wound and check on it.

 

“It’s alright, Jun-kun,” Sho says with a smile.

 

Jun just throws him a deathly glare to make him shut up and Sho smiles apologetically. With deft fingers Jun wraps a towel around Sho’s finger to dry the blood.

 

“It’s really not necessary,” Sho says, but before he can continue, Jun smacks him slightly, frowning. “Okay, okay,” Sho finally gives in. “Do as you please.”

 

Jun nods approvingly, grabbing Sho’s wrist and pulling him to the living room. He first makes him sit down there, then goes to retrieve the first aid kit from the bathroom, before joining Sho on the soft carpet on the floor.

 

The cut on Sho’s finger is gladly not too deep, but judging by how he is a catastrophe in the kitchen, he should better stay away from sharp objects there. Maybe he can… set the table? And leave the knives for Jun to put on the table? But then, if he broke some of the plates, it could be dangerous too. Everything that contains work with a knife is off-limits now too, hence he can’t cut vegetables or meat, and Jun doesn’t want him anywhere close to a hot pan too. Makes things difficult.

 

Sho chuckles all of a sudden, touching Jun’s cheek softly. “I wonder where you are with your thoughts?”

 

The touch feels so good that Jun leans into it, putting his own hand on Sho’s. It’s just been an instinctive reaction and he is shocked himself that he suddenly was so daring, but gladly Sho doesn’t pull his hand away, he also doesn’t seem to be angry at him for taking things too far. Hence Jun stays that way. He doesn’t dare to move, just waits, until Sho carefully moves his thumb over his cheek. Jun smiles and when Sho tilts his head and leans forward, he happily takes the invitation and meets his lips halfway.  Jun feels his heart almost burst when he feels the soft texture of Sho’s lips. He hasn’t expected that they would share a kiss at all, ever, and now he has difficulties controlling the frantic beat of his heart.

 

The magic only lasts a few seconds though because suddenly Sho pulls away, eyes widened in shock. “I’m so sorry!”

 

EH… why? Jun blinks in confusion.

 

“You probably think I’m taking advantage of you, I’m sorry,” Sho says, grabs the first aid kit and gets up to put it away.

 

Jun blushes both in anger and in disappointment. He could of course scribble something in his notebook, but what the hell should he write? He wishes he would be able to say that Sho didn’t take advantage of him, that he just wants to continue kissing him. But without words it’s impossible and he will never be able to write down his sentiments properly. A written word is always something else. Jun fights back the urge to cuddles against his pillow and cry like a little kid. He can’t help it, Sho probably doesn’t like him enough. There is no need to whine, and sulk. He should be thankful that Sho is giving him a place to live after all.

 

 

~~~

 

 

“So did you already get him into your bed?”

 

Sho looks up from his drink in horror. “What?” He is meeting with his friends in the bar, while Jun works there. Aiba has messaged him to come as fast as possible because Jun is swinging his pretty butt and the tips are just flying around. When Sho arrived, panicked that Jun might be doing a go-go dance, Jun wasn’t swinging anything except a plate with glasses and was sporting a polite smile. He looks hot though. When he brings them their drinks, he blushes when he looks at Sho.

 

Damn it, so he feels uncomfortable. He knew it. Kissing him was such a bad idea. Not that it wasn’t wonderful to do it, but to make an approach on a mentally unstable person…ugh… bad.

 

Ohno and Nino crack up. “What do you mean with what?” Nino points out.

 

Sho frowns, emptying a shot with tequila. “I still don’t get it.”

 

“Really?” Aiba blinks. “Or are you just playing dumb?”

 

“I’ll enlighten you,” Ohno offers cheerfully. He has drunk enough not to mind Aiba’s hand moving over his thigh teasingly. “You think Jun-kun is hot.”

 

“Exactly,” Nino agrees. “Hence why we asked you if you got him into bed already.”

 

“It’s not…” Sho furrows his eyebrows. “I don’t want to get him into bed! What are you thinking!?”

 

“Is it so bad to find him hot?” Nino asks in surprise.

 

“No,” Sho huffs, because yes, he is hot. “It’s just that you assume that I’m just helping him out because I want to get him into my bed.”

 

Ohno seems to sober up all of a sudden. “Sho-kun,” he says softly. “No one thinks you are taking advantage him. It’s just that you haven’t had anyone at your side for long, and he is here with you and nice, and obviously likes you and-“

 

“Just shut up,” Sho huffs angrily. “Leave me alone!”

 

Well, as they are in Aiba’s bar the others can’t possibly leave him alone. He has to leave. When he is about to do so, already getting out of the door, he can feel a warm hand wrapping around his wrist. He believes it’s Nino or Aiba, and spins around. “What!?” he hisses angrily, just to look into Jun’s dark eyes.

 

Jun lets go of his wrist immediately, looking like he just touched a hot iron.

 

“No, sorry,” Sho stutters. “I didn’t know it was you. I didn’t mean to yell at you!” Jun still looks at him sceptically, but when Sho smiles at him softly, he seems to relax. “I thought it was Nino or Aiba-kun.”

 

Jun tilts his head, a cute frown gracing his face now. He takes his phone out, typing something. Did you guys fight?

 

“A bit,” Sho admits. He doesn’t know why he is so honest with Jun most of the time. Maybe because Jun doesn’t talk, and when you can only use a minimum of words, you need to focus on what’s important, or you will never be able to lead a conversation.

 

Why?

 

“They said something that upset me,” Sho says warily.

 

What did they say?

 

“I…” No way! He can’t tell it Jun. “It’s not that important.”

 

Jun looks at the ground. It’s about me, right? Sho wants to shake his head, but Jun ignores him, typing again. I’m messing up your life, I’m sorry.

 

I shouldn’t rely on your kindness all the time.

 

Jun looks sad. And I’m blocking your apartment since weeks. You can’t even take someone along. I’m always there.

 

“Jun…”

 

I’m so sorry. If you don’t want to have me around, I can always leave. I can…

 

Sho grabs his hand to stop him from typing. “No,” he says. “All of it is wrong. You are wrong,” he just can’t emphasize it enough.

 

Jun looks at him in confusion.

 

“Don’t leave me,” Sho says softly because he has no idea what else to say. “Stay with me. I like to have you around.”

 

To his surprise Jun blushes slightly, and nods.

 

“Are you working long today?” Sho asks carefully.

 

Jun smiles and shakes his head. He shows Sho his phone again. Half an hour more.

 

“Should I wait for you? We could go home together,” Sho offers, because he doesn’t want to push Jun into anything by telling him he wants to stay and wait for him. To his relief Jun shows him a beautiful smile and nods.

 

It doesn’t take long for Jun to wrap up his work and head outside to Sho. He is panting when he reaches him, cheeks flushed slightly, and Sho can’t hold back a soft smile at how beautiful and young he suddenly looks.

 

He chuckles slightly when Jun grabs his arm and pulls him along. It’s a warm night, well, at least warmer than usual, and after they walked a few minutes Sho can suddenly see big white snowflakes falling down on them. Beautiful crystals.

 

Jun reaches out his hands and lets the snowflakes fall on his palm. He smiles at Sho, and Sho knows what he wants to tell him even without words. “Yes, Jun-kun, it’s beautiful, I agree.” Sho decides for once to just go along with Jun’s mood and be happy without overthinking it. “Shall we extend our walk?” he offers.

 

Jun nods in agreement, a sweet smile gracing his lips.

 

Later that night after they built a snowman and threw snowballs at each other and had tons of fun, Jun decides he wants to buy something from the konbini and Sho gives him the room to do it himself. He knows nothing can happen because Shun is watching out for him and he wants to show Jun that he is able to do things without being controlled by Sho’s presence.

 

 

~~~

 

Jun feels guilty, he really does, because he hasn’t told Sho anything, but he needs to do this. When he is in the konbini, he angles for his phone and types a message to the number Toma gave him.

 

Toma-san, you know someone who looks like me?

 

The answers comes surprising fast. Jun is just about to pay for his bag with cashew nuts and for his and Sho’s bento box when his phone beeps. Yes, his name was Yuki though. Looked exactly like you, just his aura was colder.

 

What do you mean?

 

He was detached most of the time. I can tell you more about him, if you want to? Maybe it’s  a relative! And you didn’t know he exists.

 

Jun bites his nails nervously, then he nods inwardly. Okay, shall we meet? Maybe tomorrow?

 

 

~~~

 

 

Sho hears the sound of the elevator opening its doors and soon sees Jun with a little bag in his hands. “Got everything?” he asks him. Jun nods, and smiles, but it’s a nervous smile, almost like he got scared before. “Is everything alright?” Sho asks in sudden worry. He gets up from his comfortable place on his sofa and walks to Jun, rubbing his hands over his arms.

 

Jun smiles a bit and nods. He takes his notebook and scribbles something down on it. Just tired and hungry.

 

“Do you want to go to bed?”

 

No, I need to eat something first.

 

Sho nods and chuckles. “Then take your food and go to the sofa. I’ll make you a cup with tea.” When Jun is about to scribble something, Sho shakes his head. “No discussion,” he says and shoves Jun towards the sofa. “You worked the whole evening, now go and rest. I’ll make you some tea, and I think I’m still having chocolate around.”

 

Jun smiles warmly and nods, before he wraps his arms around Sho’s arms all of a sudden. He lets go immediately though and blushes slightly, before he hurries to the living room. Sho chuckles.

 

When he is in the kitchen he realizes that he has received messages from all his friends, apologizing for their talk in the bar. Of course Sho forgives them instantly. With Ohno however he chats a bit longer, while he prepares the tea.

 

“We didn’t mean that you are looking out for him just to have sex with him,” Ohno writes him. “I just wish for you to be happy, you know? And if Jun makes you happy, then that’s fine too.”

 

“Last time you said I can’t be sure if he is serial killer.” Sho argues with a smile, but doesn’t argue against Ohno’s words anymore.

 

He can almost imagine Ohno’s smile. True, but he is a good guy. I’m sure he isn’t bad. Still be careful, we don’t know his surroundings and who is after him. But…”

 

“But?” Sho wants to know.

 

Being careful should not stop you from letting him into your heart. As I said, I believe he is a good guy, we like him. Once he will remember everything, he might need someone to catch him though. When this time comes, it will be of advantage if you know what you want from him.  

 

Sho sighs slightly when he closes his messenger and attends to the now finished tea. What he wants from Jun? He knows what he feels. He likes him. He has had a relationship before, when he was young and tried to save his friend, but he couldn’t do it. Did he love him? Probably, yes, he was crushed when he left. But with Jun it’s different. He wants to protect Jun and hold him, and never let him go. After all fate basically spit him right on the street in front of his feet.

 

 

A/N: So, Jun plans something... dangerous? Do you think Toma is a danger to him?
And... they kissed, though Sho backed off again...