Shattered Smile: Chapter 7

[lilly0]

Title: Shattered Smile Chapter 7/9
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG-13 (for now?)
Genre: romance, hurt&comfort
Plot: Young and ambitious medicine student Sho gets hired by wealthy Matsumoto-san to tutor his 19-year old son Jun. Jun spent months in hospital, they say, but now wants to get into a college. Soon Sho realizes that tutoring Jun is not all he needs to do. Jun seems to be broken, hiding from the world and not even opening up to his family anymore. I want to see him smile again, his father said, but no one tells Sho anything about what happened to Jun... It's incredible hard to put the broken pieces together again but Sho wants to try.
Note: This is my belated birthday story for cielmelodies . I'm sorry it's soooo late!! I hope you will like it! Jun is like a lost puppy that needs to be cuddled.

 

“Slow, take it slow,” Sho says, while watching Jun closely. He is inclined to reach out his hand, but he knows Jun doesn’t want it, and he probably doesn’t need it. And that’s good. It’s something he has to do and achieve by himself. His pride is slowly coming back, and Sho wants to support that.

 

Jun has gripped the banister with his right hand tightly, but keeps his left hand off it, while he carefully takes one step after another. The staircase is long and his leg still sore. Therapy and rehab take long, Matsumoto has told Sho that Jun will probably need months to be able to do light sport again, and for full recovery of his leg even longer. And even then he might not be able to exercise for too long. He will always need to be careful about what he does and for how long. But Jun fights hard and is optimistic, and the doctor too. It’s just a matter of time.

 

It’s Friday evening and they all want to go for a walk together. The family. And Sho. He has stopped feeling embarrassed for being included in all family events. It’s beginning to feel normal.

 

Matsumoto and Satoshi are waiting at the bottom of the stairs, Satoshi with his mobile in his hands. Matsumoto nudges Satoshi’s side. “Maybe you also want to film your brother?” he sneers.

 

Jun stops in his movements. “What do you mean with ALSO!?”

 

“He has made a few photos,” Matsumoto grins. He looks at the screen. “It’s cute though. Send it to me, Satoshi.”

 

Satoshi nods. “Do you want the second one too?”

 

“Yes, sure.”

 

Jun grunts in annoyance. “Can’t you leave me alone?”

 

Sho smiles. “If you are being pouty now, they will find it even cuter,” he whispers from the side, trying to hide his amusement.

 

Jun sighs. “I know.” He faces his family again. “How about you go ahead? I’ll be down by Christmas!”

 

“No way are we going without you!” Satoshi argues.

 

Jun sighs, but concentrates on the task before him. It takes him fifteen minutes but eventually he manages to reach the last stair, all without help, without crutches, and without falling. He wipes the sweat from his forehead. “I did it!” he exclaims happily.

 

Sho squeezes his arm, feeling equally happy and proud.

 

 

~~~

 

Sho helps Jun to pack his things. “I’m kinda sad we are leaving this place,” Sho muses.

 

“I am not,” Jun says surprisingly upfront.

 

“Why?” Sho pouts. “I thought you were happy to spend time with me here.”

 

Jun blinks, and to Sho’s surprise he chuckles. It’s still rare for Sho to see Jun chuckle or smile, let alone laugh openly (he hasn’t seen him laugh up to now, if he is honest, but he came a long way from the guy hiding behind his air and not looking into anyone’s eyes, which is why Sho doesn’t complain… much.) “The time with you saved me,” Jun admits, taking Sho’s hands. “I was able to recover here and to get a break from life and reality. But I think now I am ready to go back.”

 

“To life?” Sho says softly.

 

Jun nods. “I’m scared though.”

 

“Don’t be.” Sho takes Jun’s face between his hands and pulls him into a soft kiss. “Whenever you feel scared, you have me. You have your brother. You have your father. Your friends.”

 

“I know,” Jun says quietly. “I’m trying to be optimistic about my future.”

 

“You lost so much, Jun, everyone can understand that you need time, but you don’t need to close the doors to your future. Your friends wouldn’t have wanted that. You did nothing wrong.”

 

Jun stays quiet for a while. “I know,” he says. “Technically.” He puts a few shirts in his suitcase. “But my mind and heart can’t quite accept it yet.

 

Sho puts his hands on Jun’s shoulders. “That’s what you have me for.”

 

Jun smiles warmly. “Yes, but once we are back I want to give you more than just my sad memories.”

 

“Oh really.” Sho raises his eyebrows. “What else do you want to give me?”

 

“I can cook,” Jun stutters.

 

God, he is so cute when he is embarrassed. Sho decides he can poke and tease him a bit further. “And?”

 

“Like, dates,” Jun offers shyly. “If you want to.”

 

“Of course I want to,” Sho says with a smile. “How about kisses?”

 

“Kisses and so,” Jun agrees. Sho stares at him in surprise. With so does he mean… “Maybe,” Jun adds, like he realizes just now what he promised.

 

“Oh.” Sho raises his eyebrows. “Now that you said it, you sparked my interest.” He grabs Jun’s arm, pulling him into a heated kiss. “And believe me for that you don’t need you have your leg fully healed!”

 

“Go away,” Jun grumbles gruffly.

 

Sho ignores him and sneaks closer. “Did you already have sex, Jun?” He takes his hand, placing a kiss against it. He doesn’t want to make fun of Jun when it’s about sex, it’s too much of a sensitive topic, and he would hate for Jun to feel anxious around him. “Because just so you know, I want to do everything with you. But I can give you as much time as you need. No need to rush. And no need to feel embarrassed, you can tell me everything and I won’t laugh.”

 

“Nino-kun and I…” Jun admits. “We did experiment sometimes three years ago. But we never went the full way. Just kissing and touching. And then I had something like a boyfriend, in school, he moved away two years ago, but we didn’t have sex. Just other things…”

 

“Nino, huh?” Sho asks.

 

“But it’s over since a long time, and we were always just friends,” Jun stutters. “We just wanted to practices for when it gets serious.”

 

Sho grins. “I know. Listen, I’ve also just had one boyfriend up to now,” he tells Jun openly. “A senpai in High School. We had sex, but I’m not super-experienced.”

 

Jun smiles happily. “I’m ready to try it all with you.”

 

Sho stares at Jun’s wide-opened, shining eyes. “I’m dead,” he breaths out. “You are so cute.”

 

Jun shoves his hand away. “You are not supposed to call me cute,” he complains. “At least call me hot.”

 

“Oh really?” Sho teases. “Well, I can reassure you. You are also very hot, don’t worry. When we went swimming together I could catch a very promising glance on what’s beneath these clothes.”

 

“Stalker,” Jun snorts, but the blush on his face gives away how much Sho’s words affected him.

 

Sho wraps his arms around his body, kissing the back of his head softly. “I can’t wait to take you out on dates.”

 

“Will you still tutor me?” Jun asks.

 

“Do you want me to?”

 

“Of course.”

 

Sho smiles in relief. “Then I will of course. Have you decided on a study?”

 

Jun nods. “I’m going to study law.” Sho blinks, he hasn’t expected that answer. He thought Jun would rather like to pick up literature or something alike. “I know what you think. But you are wrong,” Jun says firmly. “I’m not following the footsteps of my father or Satoshi. I want to study family law and maybe work with teenagers later on.” Jun looks uncertain all of a sudden. “You think I can’t do that right? Probably I’m not good enough… I mean, I need to pass the entrance exam and…”

 

“Sh,” Sho smiles. “I am sure you can do it. I have no doubt about it. It’s a good plan you have.”

 

“Really?” Jun asks shyly.

 

Sho  nods, feeling proud of his boyfriend all of a sudden. “Really.”

 

 

~~~

 

A loud thunder makes Sho basically jump out of his bed. It’s like a fucking explosion, like the mountain next to them just blew up. He hates thunderstorms with a passion, they make him uneasy. It’s loud, the lightning flashing everything for seconds, the heavy rain.

 

Satoshi already went back to the city earlier that evening, and Matsumoto is meeting Jun’s doctor and organising a few last things for their return.

 

When another thunder makes the room shake, Sho decides he can as well get up and fetch himself a glass of water and hide somewhere in the living room. It’s weird to tap through the house at such an hour, and when it’s so silent. Normally Matsumoto is often still up, working or reading somewhere, or Satoshi. Or just the knowledge that people are around helps.

 

Sho yawns while getting a glass from the kitchen and filling it with water, when he returns he walks by the salon, tired eyes scanning the room. He almost misses the shadow lurking there. But when a lightning strikes yet again, he can see a figure sitting at the window. Sho squeals in a panic. A fucking shadow! Someone is in the house! Burglar? Thief? Murder?

 

“Sho-kun?”

 

Sho’s racing heart slows down when he hears the voice. “Jun-kun?” he asks in surprise, carefully stepping closer. Jun has sit down on the windowsill right in front of the huge glass façade of the salon. It’s a beautiful big window that gives the image of almost being outside.

 

“What are you doing here?” Sho asks while coming closer.

 

“Watching…” Jun mumbles shifting his gaze back to the outside.

 

There is this expression in his eyes, again. Every time when Jun gets lost in his thoughts the melancholy and sadness seems to return. Sho wonders if he will be able to make Jun talk about his fears, finally give them a voice and share them with him.


A/N: This is a shorter update than usual, but I really wanted to post today! I know I haven't posted in two weeks >< Sorry, I felt so demotivated... I wasn't able to find my motivation to proof-read and post and... I don't know >< It's why I definitely wanted to post today!! <3
The next chapter is supposed to be the last btw. :-)