Delusive Affairs 2/2 (Sakumoto)

[lilly0]

Sho doesn’t let go of his hand when they walk into the building, instead he calls the elevator for the both of them, tugs Jun inside too and rides all the way up to the 8th floor. It’s only when they reach Jun’s apartment and Jun unlocks the door that Sho lets go of Jun’s hand.

His hand feels almost cold now, Jun thinks in surprise.

“Please tell me you are going to bed immediately,” Sho says while he looks around. He hasn’t been here for a while, Jun figures, and quite some things look different now.

“Hm, just looking for my bedroom~”

“What!?” Sho’s eyes widen in surprise. “You can't even find that right now!? How much did you drink?”

“Only five cups of sake,” Jun scoots around, until he finally finds his kitchen. His head starts to feel a little lighter – in a good way. It’s only now that he realizes how late it is, that he drank too much, had sex with Shun and got lost on his way home. And that he stands right here, with Sho in his apartment. Sho. He angles for a glass of water and some painkillers. He really needs to regain the upper hand on his condition.

“Five?” Sho’s voice is dripping with sarcasm. “Are you stupid? You were sick only now. What the hell is wrong with you, Jun!?”

“You are what’s wrong with me. For you it might have just been sex for fun but for me it was more than that,” Jun mumbles tiredly while he stares in his glass with water. “But your bento was good. You are allowed to buy it again.”

Then he somewhat passes out. He just remotely remembers that Sho helped him find his way to his bedroom and helped him to sneak under his blanket. He also imagines how Sho sits down next to him for a while, mumbling a sorry. It sounds sad. But he isn’t sure if it really happened.


~~~

The next day Jun is late for work. Majorly late. Nino jokes about it, Aiba not since he is late too. Sho doesn’t say much but the air between them is a little too thick and awkward, so that Ohno eyes them suspiciously.

However, when they reach lunch, Jun suddenly finds a bento box on his table again. He turns around, searching, until he finds Sho’s face. The latter just blushes slightly, shrugs and turns away.

Later that day he goes for an afternoon-late lunch break with Aiba and Ohno. He originally wanted to go through his new ad script together with Ohno, but the other two have different plans because Aiba immediately picks the topic of Sho and Jun being awkward up again. “What’s about that weird tension with Sho-chan?”

“Nothing,” Jun looks down at his script. “Did you ever feel like your love life needs more excitement?” he recites.

“Then you should try a new adventure,” Ohno continues before he looks up from his script. “Jun? What happened?”

Jun sighs. “Well, I got drunk last night.” When Ohno opens his mouth, obviously about to say something or scold him for it, he raises his hands in defence. “Don’t. I learned my lesson. I just spontaneously met with Shun because he was in town and got carried away.” The glance Ohno throws him though tells him that it probably isn’t the end of the talk and he should brace himself up for getting reprimanded later. Awesome.

“And Sho?” Aiba asks curiously.

“Not sure,” Jun scratches his head in confusion, deciding not to think about Ohno being angry now. “I can’t quite remember, just that I hung out with Shun-“ no need tell them about his little interaction with his friend. “-then I wanted to go home. I think I got lost,” he frowns. “And met Sho, coincidentally. Then it gets really weird.”

“Weird?” Ohno asks, apparently curiosity winning over. “Why?”

“I think alcohol influenced my memory a bit,” Jun blushes. “But I have this weird image about Sho-kun scolding and even slapping me, rather lightly though. Then he took my hand and guided me home and waited for me to go to sleep. In my weird dream, I even told him that he is at fault for everything, that I liked him while for him it was just a game. And that’s about it.”

Ohno looks at Jun for a while, soft bewilderment in his eyes, then he just chuckles. “You are right,” he grins. “Must have been a dream. You probably only ran into him and he called you a taxi, right Masaki-kun?”

Aiba blinks in surprise when Ohno asks him for agreement so directly. He blushes for a moment, then he nods. “Yeah,” he says but he doesn’t look at Ohno or Jun directly, rather eyes the sushi plate in front of him, cheeks a little flushed.

Can’t be. It’s impossible! Jun’s throat feels dry all of a sudden, he throws a begging glance towards Ohno, like the latter is able to save him from that huge embarrassment. Ohno however only shrugs helplessly as well, before he turns towards Aiba. “Masaki-kun, did you talk to Sho about it? Did Sho tell you what happened?”

“Give me the soy sauce please,” Aiba says instead and points at the item next to Jun.

“Oh my god,” Jun breaths out. “Please make me drop unconscious right now! You-” He points at Ohno with his chopstick. “-you are mad at me for drinking while I was still sick, right? Hit me hard, so that I have to go to hospital and don’t need to face him right now.”

“It’s not that bad,” Aiba tries to reason.

Ohno and Jun exchange a look. “How is that not bad?” Ohno wants to know calmly, and Jun is eternally thankful that he is in his sarcastic mode recently.

Aiba looks up from his sushi, his dark-brown eyes filled with warmth. “Sho is relieved that Jun finally laid it out on him, told him how he felt, not so cold than usual,” He smiles a bit. “Sho never meant to hurt you. He was just-“

“Yeah,” Jun interrupts his friend. “But he did. He promised me things he couldn’t hold up to. And in the end he just left the broken pieces that remained.”

Ohno tilts his head, like he is thinking about something. He looks at Jun for a long while before he shifts his attention towards Aiba. “I know that Sho is dear to you but you have to understand Jun too.”

“I do,” Aiba sighs and catches the bottle with soy sauce himself now. “I just want everyone to be happy.”

Jun can’t help but to chuckle all of a sudden. “You are so cute. A true friend, that’s what’s so charming about you.”


~~~

They are used to shooting for ads and up till now everything worked out pretty well. Just this time everything seems to be against them. It’s about a BDSM ad shooting and video shooting this time and they start with Jun and Ohno together. But Ohno apparently looks too helpless in the setting.

“Jun looks good and in game. But you, Satoshi, you look like you don’t mind at all,” Nino laughs. “Could you try to go for a more… erotic look?”

“How does an erotic look work?” Ohno wants to know.

“The eyes, it has to be in the eyes,” Nino sighs in exasperation. He throws his pen aside and walks towards Jun. “Like this,” he says, his eyes suddenly darker than before. He walks slowly, fingers brushing over Jun’s hands, then he leans into Jun’s arms. Jun almost automatically wraps his arms around him, gets engulfed by the dark glance in his eyes. It’s almost as natural as breathing or sleeping or eating.

“Hm,” Ohno frowns when Nino moves away again. “Fine, I’ll try.” He reaches out his hand, touching Jun’s shoulders, fingers curled around his neck. He pulls Jun forward like that, his soft lips suddenly against Jun’s. It feels good, Jun has to admit that, Ohno might not be the most erotic person but there is something so soothing about his presence.

When they draw apart though and Ohno tries to throw him a lascivious glance, Jun bites down on his lips. For a moment both of them stare at each other, then they burst into giggles.

“Awesome,” Nino sighs.

So, they swap, it’s Jun and Aiba now. But though Aiba manages the erotic look better, he still looks too nice. So nice that Sho frowns a little. “You are too cute, Masaki,” he says. And they all, except for Aiba himself, agree.

Then it’s Nino’s turn. He has the erotic game down, Jun knows that. And it works perfectly fine. Just that-

“You look hot, Nino, that’s not it,” Ohno tries diplomatically.

“But?” Nino asks sharply, eyes glinting dangerously all of a sudden.

“You are looking almost too fragile.”

Nino’s eyebrows rise for a moment before he frowns deeply. “I’m not fragile!” he huffs.

“We know that,” Ohno says calmly. “But this is a hard-core BDSM ad. And Jun is pretty tall and, well, trained.”

Nino stares at Ohno for a while, still looking angry. Then however, he turns his glance towards Jun, eyeing him intensely. “Yes,” he sighs and pokes Jun’s abs. “He really has a nice body.” He grabs his trousers and shirt again, putting them on, then he leaves the set and moves towards Aiba and Nino.

Jun looks at them, not able to hide the questioning look in his eyes. “And now?” he asks helplessly.

It’s deadly silent for a moment. Aiba looks to the side, blushing deeply, Nino coughs and says he needs to hurry for the toilet. Only Ohno looks at him directly, an almost apologetically glance in his eyes.

“No!” Jun says immediately.

“But it’s the only option,” Aiba mumbles sheepishly. “I mean, we other three couldn’t make it work. And Nino is always going to look fragile – no matter who is standing next to him.”

“We need to make this ad,” Ohno obviously half-agrees with Aiba words.

It’s silent again. This time it’s Sho though who breaks the silence. He stares at Jun through wide-opened eyes, then looks at the other three. “Wait a moment, do you mean-“

“Yes,” Aiba says calmly. “You need to model with Jun. I’ll make the photos – I’m pretty good at that.”

“Nino and I will do the filming,” Ohno nods.

“But, I’m the editor in chief,” Sho stutters. “I can’t participate in an ad. I’m not an actor.”

Aiba chuckles at that. “We aren’t either. Did you already forget?”

Jun has had it. He knows by the way his lips quiver slightly and the way his body tenses up that he either is calling it a day for today or has to get over with it immediately. “Fine,” he says grimly. “Let’s do it.”

His look was probably quite intimidating because Aiba smiles nervously and Ohno just shoots him a begging glance. Sho on the other hand, although obviously feeling uncomfortable, doesn’t look much intimidated – he never is or was by Jun – but he does look flustered, like he is feeling sorry.


~~~

“A little closer,” Aiba basically throws himself on the floor with his camera, like he is in some sort of comic, trying to capture a paparazzi pic. “Yes, Jun-kun!” he calls out excitedly. “Kill me with your eyes. Shoot me, hate me! It’s the perfect look.”

“Masaki,” Nino clears his throat and Jun isn’t too sure if he sounds amused or annoyed. “You are getting too much into this.”

“How can I not,” Aiba chirps. “Look how hot they are. Sho-chan,” he raises his gaze a bit, take the handcuff between your teeth. Exactly. And now, lean back further, let yourself fall.”

Jun tries not to wince when he hears the word fall, he also tries not to wince when Sho’s warm back makes contact with his chest, his hair tickles his nose softly, his left hand grasping Jun’s upper thigh to pretend that he is trying to regather his balance. They are both packed in leather but not the cheap porn like one – it’s soft and not that gleaming, and designed beautifully. Apparently it’s originally for BDSM models.

“Throw your head back a little, Sho. Jun, kiss his neck.” Ohno says in a matter-of-fact tone and Jun is glad that at least one of his three friends sounds rather composed and calm. It’s infectious.

Jun does what the other tells him, lips roaming over Sho’s skin. There are images and memories flooding him all of a sudden of the countless times he and Sho spent together. It was not so long ago after all.

His trail of thoughts gets gladly interrupted by Aiba’s voice. “Okay, Sho-chan now use the blindfold.”

Sho struggles, so Jun naturally helps him, fixing the blindfold around his eyes. Then Aiba tells him to wrap an arm around Sho’s waist from behind, hand supposed to stroke up and down Sho’s chest.

Okay, damn it, that is hot. Sho’s muscles flex beneath his fingers. He has always had a well-trained body. Jun has done such photo shootings many times already and it normally doesn’t affect him, but this time he has a hard time trying to stay composed. It’s just so freaking hot. Sho’s breathe against his neck when he bends forward to hover all over Sho, just like Ohno tells him to.

The third pose they have to do is for the video-shooting, with Jun lying on a blanket, throwing a lascivious glance towards the camera. He is only wearing his pants now, wrists tied to the bedframe (or at least what they pretend to be the bedframe – two floor lamps).

“The whip,” Ohno whispers in their direction and Sho grabs the item, moving it over Jun’s back teasingly.

“Now, text!”


“Did you ever feel like your love life needs more excitement?” Jun whispers seductively.

Sho turns his face away from Jun and towards the camera. “Then you should try a new adventure.” His voice is low and hoarse and it sends tingles over Jun’s body. Then Sho lets the whip come down on Jun’s butt. Jun is prepared for that and keeps his body from jumping. Besides Sho hasn’t used any real strength, just enough so that they get the sound for the camera.

“Cut!”

Sho puts the whip aside and sits down on the chair next to the set in exhaustion. He looks tired and a little confused. Jun frowns deeply. Why the hell is that idiot confused now?

Jun himself feels like a complete mess, kind of like in that stupid shojo-manga he borrowed from Aiba where the main heroine was going through the craziness of being in love with someone, who was in love with someone else, while a third person had a secret crush on her and a fourth person tried to intervene.

When no one is watching, Jun hurries to the toilet. He opens the water tap and lets the water run for a while, just staring down at the cold liquid, before he takes a handful and splashes it into his face. His cheeks feel so freaking hot.


~~~


Jun decides to stay at home this evening and play Floppy Bird on his phone. Nino has installed that stupid game and now he is basically addicted to it. He is about to beat his own high score when his phone vibrates and a message arrives.

It’s from Sho. Awesome – not! Still, Jun opens it.

Jun, back then, when we dated, I truly loved you. I know you think it was a game for me, but it was never something casual, never a game. I just was an emotional wreck, not ready to commit to it completely, even though I wanted to so badly. Even though I told you to jump together with me and to fall together. I never wanted to misuse your trust.

You jerk. Why saying this now when it’s almost one year later? Jun is about to throw his phone against the wall like his original 16-years-old, overdramatic teenage self when his phone vibrates again.

I know it’s pathetic and all. And I should have told you all about it but I wanted to solve everything myself. You know, back then, my parents wanted to force a marriage on me. I was in a constant fight with them. I didn’t want to bother you with that.

Jun blinks. That, indeed, he didn’t know. Another message.

It took me months to settle that problem. Now I’m disinherited, but free! And I’m very glad about that. However, once I settled everything, I realized that unfortunately I lost you on my way.

Oh my god, that’s so cheesy but somewhat cute, in a very twisted Sho-way. Jun is not ready to really talk about it again though, so he goes for the midway. If you expect me to hug you now, Sho-kun, you have to come and get your hug yourself.

Jun is pretty sure that Sho is not coming to get anything. It’s Sho after all. Even a year ago it was always Jun coming to Sho, Jun calling, Jun visiting. Never the other way round.


~~~

Jun fell asleep on his sofa. He has decided to switch into his comfy-clothes, grab his Totoro pillow and watch “Gone with the wind” first and then “Maid-sama”, the last few episodes.

When the bell to his door rings, he almost drops from the sofa. He is even somewhat pissed at the disturbance – it’s probably either Aiba or Nino. When he opens the door, he almost drops back into his apartment though. He stares at the person in front of him, so flabbergasted that he doesn’t know what so say.

“You look cute,” Sho chuckles and points at Jun’s grey-pink sweater and blue-jeans. “Why are you looking so surprised? You told me that if I want a hug, I need to get it myself.”

Jun doesn’t even know what to say or how to react but Sho beats him to it nevertheless, because he just spreads his arms and wraps them around Jun. So Jun takes three seconds to decide between the obvious two options: push Sho away and punch him or hug him back. He goes for the second option because punching someone is definitely not an option for anything.

Later on they settle down on Jun’s sofa and it’s a little embarrassing – not only because Jun feels like his appearance is way too nerdy to be appealing. It just feels so damn awkward in general. Then however Sho chuckles. “Are you still into that Shojo-stuff?”

“Any problems with that?” Jun huffs.

Sho smiles soothingly. “Not at all. What are you watching?”

Jun blushes, cheeks feeling unusually hot. “Maid-sama. Just finished it.”

“And then?”

“Kimi ni Todoke or-” When Sho smirks a bit, he throws him a glare. “What? It’s very popular right now. And it’s cute.”

“Or what?” Sho asks, apparently eager to change the topic and diffuse Jun’s anger.

“Junjo Romantica,” Jun stutters. “I know it’s Boys Love and totally sappy and stuff. But I need inspiration for my new article, it’s about first times and-“

“It’s fine,” Sho says softly. “Mind me if I watch it with you?”

Jun shrugs. He is not too sure about that.


~~~


Apparently watching Boys Love anime has sparked Sho’s imagination and his creativity because one week later he bursts into the office, grinning brightly. They just finished a deadline and published their latest issue – it sold very well.

Now it seems however that Sho was blessed with a new idea. “Short erotic movie!” he grins in a so non-Sho-like manner that Jun is quite surprised, while Nino is so taken aback that he forgets to make a teasing comment.

“Did something good happen?” Ohno asks carefully. “You are a little too cheerful recently.”

Sho just smiles and clasps Ohno’s shoulder. “Nothing,” he chirps. “Just had a good, positive push last week.”

Aiba giggles slightly behind Jun and Jun can’t help but blush.

“So, what’s that thing about the short movie?” Nino suddenly intervenes, much to Jun’s relief. “Pardon, I meant to say: erotic short movie?”

“We’ll make one,” Sho grins unusually impish. “An erotic short-movie, with us in the main roles.”

“Awesome,” Aiba calls out and hugs Sho all of a sudden. It’s that sudden gesture from Aiba that makes Jun’s stomach sting weirdly.


~~~


Gangster’s paradise. The plot of the short movie is so freaking cliché that Jun feels positively reminded of his beloved boys love and shojo anime. It makes his heart skip a beat. Nino grumbles at the plot though, Ohno doesn’t mind and Aiba is as excited as Jun, just that Aiba is showing it more.

For now though they have to study the script, not that it’s particularly difficult but Sho decides they should take the afternoon off and relax a bit. So, Jun does, in front of his TV.

What are you watching today?

Jun smiles carefully when he receives Sho’s message. Cardcaptor Sakura

You are kidding me! *lol*

Jun blushes a bit. Hey, it’s a classic!

Alright, alright. I won’t complain. Mind if I join?

Jun blinks. Since when is this idiot into shojo stuff? One year ago he still laughed about Jun’s nerdy addiction to boys love and shojo mangas, sappy romance movies and hell, he and Aiba even went to Conventions several times and they even cosplayed as Final Fantasy videogame characters once – when Sho found that out back then he only told them they were stupid. Damn it, he and Aiba even wrote fanfiction together once, something Sho only commented with a grunt and rolling his eyes.

Only if you don’t make fun of me.

Sho’s answer comes fast. I will never make fun of you!

Hm, doesn’t sound like the Sho from one year ago at all. Jun sighs. Sho’s promises are not the steadiest ones. He should probably not feel too excited about this here. He tries to convince himself that Sho is just trying to be nice, that he wants them to be good co-workers, so that’s why… But he can’t help the way his stomach jumps in happiness when Sho finally knocks at his door with Chinese noodles from the take-away right around the corner.

Sho stays over night because he falls asleep over the third episode already.


~~~


“Sir, you asked for my service?” Nino is wearing a black shirt with a white collar and black trousers – apparently his uniform as a servant. They can’t afford too much real costumes.

Aiba is playing the gangster boss because he is the tallest. They put so much freaky make-up on him that he really looks a little dangerous. Sho and Jun are playing the dangerous gangsters, working under Aiba. Ohno volunteered to do the filming. They will take turns on that, so that everyone can appear.

“Now, build up the tension and act on the premise. Don’t forget if it sells well, we’ll be able to make it a series!” Ohno commands from the side, apparently very interested in this project by now. “Jun, you like Sho, but aren’t sure if he is gay. Aiba, you like Jun, so to make him happy you decide to get him together with Sho. You test Sho’s sexuality beforehand though. Sho however, falls for you-“

“Oh my god, that’s so dramatic,” Nino sighs. “What about me?”

“Well,” Ohno grins. “We don’t know the outcome yet, so you might be the one to pamper the one that gets rejected in the end.”

“Uh, awesome, I get the leftover?” Nino jokes.

Aiba giggles, hands touching Sho’s shoulders affectionately. “I will test you well,” he mumbles seductively.

Sho blushes. Damn it, Jun thinks, what the heck is going on? He doesn’t want to disturb any love that is blossoming between his friends. Maybe he was just getting a bit too engulfed in these evenings with Sho. It’s been over a year after all and Sho said it clearly in past tense: Back then I loved you. Nothing about now.


~~~


After this revelation that Sho might slowly fall for Aiba, Jun does the obvious. He just goes out to get wasted. The barkeeper of his favourite bar is a cutey, he is obviously new. “What’s your name?”

The barkeeper blushes slightly while he reaches him his mojito. “Kamenashi Kazuya.” He smiles. “Just call me Kame.”

“Kame?” Jun chuckles. Turtle? “Cute guy, cute name,” he muses. By the glance Kame throws him, he knows he just got him with that comment. Two drinks later with Kame while Kame has his break, they stick to casual first names and exchange their hobbies – Kame collects stones and stickers. So, he can fully understand Jun’s liking in anime, cooking and cosplay. It’s just normal.

It’s also just normal when they head for the toilet secretly – gladly it’s a somewhat cleaned one and Jun doesn’t feel grossed out completely. He is also glad that being a writer for an erotic magazine provides him with extra promotional gift like lube, condoms, blindfolds, handcuffs and quite some other neat stuff. He doesn’t need the fancy things now though, condoms and lube are enough. Kame steadies himself against the cold toilet wall, while Jun hugs him from behind, with one hand steadying himself against the wall too, with the other brushing over Kame’s slender chest, down his crotch. Their trousers dangle around their feet already – and it’s narrow and uncomfortable. Jun still takes enough time to stretch Kame, before he puts a condom around his cock, trying not to stumble over the toilet while doing so.

“Okay?” Jun asks.

Kame nods. “Yes, do it.”

He pushes into the other carefully, his slick hand wrapped around Kame’s cock. It’s messy and not particularly pleasant to fuck someone like this – Jun prefers more space and a tidier place but he tries to concentrate on Kame’s moans, on the way he clenches his muscles around Jun’s cock, on his beautiful neck, on the way his hair smells. He really is pretty.

Not like Sho though.

Damn it, he doesn’t need Sho in his mind now, really.

It takes them 20 minutes to finish. And at least Kame is happy. “You are really awesome,” he beams. “I guess it’s better we leave the toilet separately?”

Jun forces a smile on his lips. “Yes, thank you Kame-chan. You are an awesome guy.”

Kame chuckles and leaves. Jun at least is glad that Kame didn’t expect more from him than a quickie. He sits down on the toilet for a while, staring at the white wall in front of him, before he starts cleaning up. Okay, he does feel bad.


~~~

Jun pays for his drinks, while Kame throws him a friendly wave, then he leaves. He is just about to pass the bar, when he feels two strong hands suddenly grabbing his collar and pulling him into the dark corner of a side street. For a moment Jun feels puzzled, stunned almost, too scared to move, but then he sees the person in front of him. “Sho-kun?” he stutters.

“What do you think are you doing?” Sho huffs and presses Jun against the wall.

“What-“ Jun doesn’t quite know how to react, there are tons of questions swirling around in his mind, like how did Sho find him? Why is he here? Why is he so angry? Then it slowly dawns on him that Sho probably knows exactly what he did during the last half an hour. He blushes. “But you and Masaki-kun-“

“Masaki and I aren’t doing anything!” Sho huffs. “I thought I was giving you clear signs! And I thought your signs were also pretty clear.”

“Clear signs?” Jun tries to free himself from Sho’s tight grip but the latter is stronger than he looks like. “You were giving me clear signs? Sho-kun it’s not a clear sign to-“

Before he can even continue, Sho presses his lips against his. The way Sho forcefully kisses him feels a bit like he isn’t sure if he wants to punish Jun or just wants to fuck him. Jun gasps a bit for air when Sho draws back.

“Was that a clear sign now!?”

“Sho, what the hell-“

Then Sho kisses him again and this time Jun decides to go with the flow and kisses him back. When they take a break again, Sho sighs. “I know you don’t trust me yet,” he says silently.

For a while Jun wavers then he sighs. “I swear,” Jun stutters, glad that Sho doesn’t interrupt him this time. “If you leave me again, if this isn’t what you want, if you are not ready to fall with me and let me jump alone again, I’m going to never say a word to you again, except for asshole, jerk and the like.”

“Won’t happen,” Sho smiles. “I promise, I know what I want and I’m confident that this time I can keep it.”

“Prove it!”

“Prove?” Sho pulls his eyebrows up. “Knowing that you slept with all those guys – I was watching you all the time after all – and to see how you disappeared with that barkeeper to the toilet and hear you inside there – and still being there, isn’t that proof enough?”

Jun’s cheeks heat up a little. He didn’t know how much aware Sho was of everything. He clears his throat. “And now?” he asks.

Sho smiles. “I still have that whip, the ties and leather handcuffs. It was a promotional gift after all. Maybe I should punish you?”

“You’ve always been a kinky jerk,” Jun says teasingly though the image of Sho tying him up is almost too present in his mind now, alluring and seductive.

Sho tilts his head, chuckling. He doesn’t say anything though, just waves with his hand, a smile on his lips. Jun knows what he wants anyway. So when Sho leaves the little dark corner Jun follows him without saying anything either. They walk to Jun’s place by foot, naturally. At one point Sho turns around. “Which series are you watching now?” he wants to know.

Jun reaches out and takes Sho’s hand. “Ouran High School Host Club.”

“So cliché,” Sho squeezes Jun’s hand and grins, but he sounds too soft to really be teasing.


~~~


Sho has put the Sleepless in Seattle soundtrack on – one of Jun’s favourites – low sound though – he likes to hear music while having sex and shares Jun’s little addiction for soundtracks of all sorts. Jun however doesn’t really mind because Sho has made his little threat or promise, depends on the perspective, true and Jun finds himself tied to the bedframe. The leather cuffs are pretty comfortable, at least he can say that much. Sho hasn’t pulled them together too tight to leave Jun space to turn over. Now, however he is lying on his stomach, the black silk blindfold covering his eyes.

“From now on,” Sho mumbles while he moves the whip over the curve of Jun’s butt. Jun tenses up, hearing the blow before it comes down to his butt. Sho uses much more strength than during their video-shooting. “Next time you want to try something – like a manual – or get inspiration, you will practise with me, not with someone else. I don’t like to share.” He smacks Jun’s butt again. “Clear?”

“Hm, I will think about it,” Jun smiles teasingly. He can almost feel how Sho’s body tenses but when Jun chuckles, he relaxes again. The latter smacks him again. And again. Until little moans escape Jun’s lips.

“Your answer still the same?” Sho asks.

Jun decides to play along. “Yes,” he mumbles.

Sho laughs at that, apparently not able to stay in role today. Jun can hear how he throws the whip to the side and suddenly Sho’s slick fingers are probing his entrance, brushing over it teasingly first before he starts with stretching, pushing two fingers inside him at once. “Are you trying to tick me off or to tease me?” he jokes.

“It’s because I just don’t know you that nice,” Jun’s heart jumps in careful joy when he feels Sho’s lips against his. Sho continues stretching him meanwhile and he is about to tease Sho about being too eager and having forgotten all about a foreplay, when he suddenly feels something hard against is hole.

Screw it. He throws his head back. He knows that item. It’s that stupid vibrator Nino fell in love with.

“Hm~” Sho hums while he tugs at Jun’s legs. “Turn over.”

Jun does so while feeling Sho handling the vibrator with quite some skill. It’s deeper inside him now, filling him up while brushing over his soft spot. “Damn it,” he hisses, glad that his eyes are hidden behind the blindfold and that Sho can’t see the probably pretty desperate look in them. Now he can feel Sho’s fingers brushing up his thighs and wrapping around his cock, stroking it lazily. He wants to touch Sho so badly, wants to wrap his arms around him, pull him closer. “Sho-“ he mumbles.

“Didn’t you say you need some inspiration for that BDSM article you are writing for the next issue?” Sho teases and Jun can imagine his smirk clearly. There is a pause in which Jun isn’t sure what he is supposed to answer because saying that he just wants Sho so badly now, no matter how, is too sappy.

Then he suddenly feels how his restraints get loosened and his arms are free. “Then let’s go for that BDSM session tomorrow. Because I have quite a lot in mind for that,” Sho says softly and Jun can feel his lips against his chest, lips sucking at one of his nipples, biting it slightly. He wonders when the hell Sho got so attentive and so nice. One year ago he was so different.

“You are not leaving, right?” Jun mumbles, fingers brushing through Sho’s thick hair now. “You are staying with me. You are not only so nice because it’s only for today.”

Sho lets out a sad sigh. Jun can both hear it and feel it against his skin. “Was I really not?” Sho suddenly asks, resting his chin on Jun’s chest, voice wary while he shifts the vibrator slightly.

Jun bites down on his lips, trying not to moan at that sudden movement. What’s this with his friends using sex toys so randomly while talking normally? “Not what?”

“Nice,” Sho says and removes the vibrator carefully. “You said before you don’t know me nice. And you just did it again”

Jun shifts around a bit, hands moving from Sho’s hair towards his face. He cups his chin a little and pulls him up. “Hug me,” he says, smiling when he can feel Sho’s arms around him. “Kiss me?” Sho chuckles and his body vibrates against Jun’s skin, then the blindfold is suddenly gone and he can feel Sho’s fingers touching his skin, sees Sho’s eyes looking at him warmly. Then there are soft lips kissing his eyelids first, then his forehead, his cheeks, his nose and then finally his lips. It feels so much better than any kiss he has shared with someone else over the last year. He wraps his arms around Sho. “Just never leave me like that again. And promise me you changed for real.”

“Yes, Jun, my dear. I promise. I’m even going to watch-“ he pauses, chuckling. “What are you watching at the moment?” he wants to know.

Jun smiles. “Gakuen Heaven.”

“High School Shonen-ai?” Sho bites his lips like he wants to hold back a laugh. When Jun smacks him, he just chuckles. “I’m sorry, it’s just… that one is really cliché, Jun, my sweet lover. But yes, I’m going to watch that with you, and then cook together with you and bake – if you let me – and I will cuddle as much as you want.”

“Are you going to cosplay together with Masaki and me?” Jun asks, not able to hide the teasing tune in his voice.

Sho is obviously a bit flustered at that. “Can I cosplay as something cool?” he asks diplomatically.

In a normal situation Jun might have start an argument about how every of his and Masaki’s cosplays – including the one from Final Fantasy XIII where Jun cosplayed Noel and Aiba Hope – are cool but the mere fact that Sho even thinks about it, makes him speechless. He sits up a little. “You would really cosplay? You are kidding, aren’t you?”

“Not at all,” Sho blushes. “If it means so much to you. I mean, I wouldn’t do every event – I would rather stick to just accompanying you then – but once in a while you might convince me. You know, nothing too extreme. Maybe a cosplay that’s more on the beginner or normal side. Something like-“

Jun doesn’t let him finish his sentence, he just dashes forward, kissing Sho with all he has. It’s a bit rough and messy but he doesn’t mind. Sho doesn’t either it seems because his fingers are suddenly tugging at Jun’s hair and he is forcing him down into the mattress.

“Fuck me,” Jun mumbles against Sho’s soft lips. “Now.”

“When did you grow so demanding,” Sho asks in interest, angling for the package of condoms lying next to them on the night side table. “Not that I don’t like it though.”

“Guess we both changed?” Jun offers innocently.

Sho chuckles. “Can’t wait to discover what’s different,” he jokes and kneels between Jun’s legs all of a sudden. Jun’s glad that the vibrator stretched him properly already, so he can just feel Sho inside him immediately. It does feel weirdly normal and like the last 12 months, 2 weeks and 4 days didn’t happen (not that he counted of course, he just remembers coincidentally) Sho goes too soft on him, like he is afraid to break whatever is blossoming between them again. Jun just chuckles and wraps his arms around Sho’s neck, pulling him down closer to his body, while he wraps his legs around him tightly. He starts snapping up his hips, rocking against Sho, until the latter rolls his eyes in pleasure.

They both come pretty fast and messily but neither one minds.


~~~

“Oh, you have a Givenchy bathrobe too?” Sho asks in sincere shock when he roams through Jun’s wardrobe in search for something to wear after the shower he has taken. “Right next to your Totori one. That one is new too, but it looks somewhat familiar.”

“Yep,” Jun says casually.

“Since when do you like Givenchy?” Sho asks curiously.

Jun sneaks closer and hugs him from behind, kissing his neck. He likes it so much that he is taller than Sho – gives him quite some advantages. “Hm, since 5 months probably. Sometimes I like to look stylish too.”

“Don’t tell me you like fashion now.” Sho asks still sounding a little too shocked.

Jun smiles. “A bit, to be honest. Don’t tell me you haven’t realized the change in wardrobe during work? I’m not just a quirky nerd, you know?”

“Oh,” Sho grins. “I know you aren’t. In fact you aren’t quirky at all. Maybe a bit eccentric but it adds to your charm. Or do you think all these guys that like to go for your butt do so out of no reason?”

“Hm~” Jun hums. “Why don’t you take the Totori bathrobe if it bothers you so much?”

Sho smiles and nods. “There are just a few things I’ll need to adapt to, I guess. But it’s fine.” A pause. “Can we watch Gakuen Heaven now or did you switch your taste in anime to serious art movies?”

“No,” Jun grins, feeling like a little kid when Sho takes his hand and leads him to the sofa, fingers entwined. “Some things just remained the way they are.” He throws a secret glance at Sho, smiling a bit. “Some things are new.”

Sho chuckles. “We’ll adapt to it. For now I can’t wait to go down to that BDSM session tomorrow. I’ve tons of ideas.” He grins. “Just for you to get inspiration of course.”

Jun smirks. “Of course. Just for my inspiration.”

He is not sure if he really trusts into this already but when Sho hugs him and pulls him closer, he feels his resolve crumbling more and more. Sho’s eyes are pinned to the screen and sometimes he comments on the dialogues and the plot, like he is actually enjoying it. It’s cute, Jun thinks. When they met one year ago, he wasn’t cute at all. Never. He decides to give it another try – he needs more proof, unfortunately.

“So, are we dating exclusively now or leading an open relationship?” he asks randomly. “Because, seriously, I have to tell Nino.”

Sho grunts at that question though he doesn’t answer immediately. For a moment Jun feels a little unsure again but then Sho turns his attention towards him fully, angling for the remote to turn down the sound. A moment later his hands are on Jun’s shoulders, pressing him down into the couch. “I’m not sharing,” he says earnestly, his eyes have a certain look in them that sends a shiver of want over Jun’s spine, then Jun feels Sho’s lips against his.

Sho hopefully has changed for real.

This time Sho might jump together with him.

Comments

[raene-9.livejournal.com]

That was freaking hot! i got distracted! now need to study! My SM heart 👍❤️💜😍

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your lovely comment!! ♥
(And: Ohhhh, good luck with your studies <3)

[kitkaos.livejournal.com]

I guess the greatest change in both of them is that they are open with each other. Jun not knowing about Sho's family issues and Sho not really sure how and why he lost Jun that last time... I do like how Jun doesn't want to see neither of them is over the other. There's always just so much tension and things left unsaid between those two (until it all explodes in someone's face).

Thank you for sharing <333

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3
I just can't write Sakumoto without any tension between them - I should try some established daily-life thingy once ^^

[silverdoll14.livejournal.com]

I'm honestly a crying mess with this... I love plot like this. Heavy and light at the same time... Plus, Sho and Jun are quite sweet and cute here... Thanks for sharing!!!

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for reading this, dear! I was so happy to see your comment *huggles*

[silverdoll14.livejournal.com]

Hahaha~~~ Ma neh~ I can't pass Sakumoto after all... Nurufufufufufu~

[wjktl.livejournal.com]

I love Sho's "i'm not sharing"!

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for reading and commenting!! ♥

[yukitsubute]

I totally loved that story - well I told you already. <3

I really loved the whole scenery and what you made with them, it was the perfect mixture between funny and earnest, I loved that.

thanks for sharing <3

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3
I'm happy you liked it!! (it was fun to write Jun as a nerd :D)

[yuuki-73.livejournal.com]

Is nice when we have a second chance, and it is not wasted! SakuMoto is not my thing, but you got me, dear!!!

[lilly0]

Thanks so much for your lovely comment <3
I'm really happy you liked it!!!!

[jorian1108.livejournal.com]

Woah... How much time passed since I read your fics last time? Too much!
Thank you for this one - it was a great choice for a comeback: sweet. hot, intense and... cute at the same time.
I enjoyed it to the fullest!! <3
Tadaima!

[lilly0]

I'm so happy to see you around!! Hope to see you more often from now on. I missed you ♥
Thanks so much for reading this!! I'm really happy you like this <3