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yume_to_ameTitle: The taming of the shrew: Chapter 11/18
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
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little_kirin
Genre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
In case Toshida-sensei is surprised, he doesn’t show it. He wears a ridiculous blue-yellow beach shirt, the one Jun knows Ohno bought for him, and reaches out his hand non-chalantly. “It’s nice to finally meet you, infamous Sho-san. I’m sincerely happy, if not even thrilled to finally see you in person.”
Sho unsuccessfully tries to hide his surprise and embarrassment by hearing Toshida address him like that and bows slightly. “Thank you for your help. I’ll just wait here.”
“What are you talking about?” Toshida-sensei smiles cheerfully while he knocks at the door leading to his private apartment. When the door opens, Jun sees Yuko, his therapist’s wife. He already met her a few times and flailed over her perfect bakery. She is tall and slender, looks like she used to be a model and has an always so cheerful expression. “My dear,” Toshida smiles. “Can I load this young guy here at your place? His name is Sakurai-san.”
Yuko smiles towards Jun. “Hello, Jun-san.” She chuckles. And- “Of course, why not? He can have tea with me. I hope you don’t mind though that I’m cooking meanwhile.”
“I don’t want to bother you,” Sho stutters, throwing Jun a look of panic, like he is scared for his life and wants Jun to save him from a crazy maniac couple out of a horror movie. Jun can highly sympathize with him - when he first met Toshida he was also taken aback by his casual approach, his sun-burnt skin, his beach outfits and the way he stuffed him with food all the time.
“Maybe she could teach you how to cook,” Jun points out teasingly, mainly to loosen the tension. It works because Sho blushes and glares at him at the same time.
“Jun-san,” Sho grumbles reproachfully. “You are no help.”
Both Yuko and Toshida laugh and make a dismissive gesture with their hands. “Don’t be so shy, Sho-san,” Yuko chirps mercilessly. “I’ll make you work anyway. I need someone to cut vegetables.”
Jun shows Sho a hopefully supportive and encouraging smile before he follows Toshida with a tray with tea and mochi into his study. Toshida puts sugar into Jun’s tea and hands it to him. Before Jun can even carefully point out that he prefers no sugar, he shakes his head. “You look tired. Are you low on blood sugar?” he asks. “Drink that. It might boost your energy.”
Jun sighs and carefully sits down on the sofa. Fuck. Every movement hurts, seriously. “I…” he pauses, blushing slightly when Toshida looks at him patiently. “Kenichi-san… you’ll probably be mad.”
Toshida sighs. “I’m your therapist and not your father, Jun-san. I can’t get mad at you, it’s against my profession, and against my surfing-ideology.”
“There is a surfing-ideology?” Jun chuckles.
Toshida smirks. “There is.”
“I had a recurrence,” Jun points out, feeling more at ease again after his therapist’s weird joke. “A pretty bad one.”
Toshida nods. “I guessed that much already.”
“How?”
The other man shrugs a bit, and stirs some sugar into his own tea. “You look pale, and on top of that you brought Sho-san along. It never happened before.”
“We had a fight yesterday,” Jun points out. “A pretty bad one. Actually I was irritated the whole week. Yesterday was just the last straw.”
“Because you were thinking about our last talk and about what Sho-san did to you when you were young?” Toshida wants to know, and Jun can’t do anything else but shrug helplessly. “So, what happened?”
“I went out with friends,” Jun explains. “I didn’t tell Sho-san that I would be out.”
“Ignored his calls?” Toshida wants to know.
“And his messages,” Jun admits. “He just wanted to know if I’m alright, but I couldn’t bring myself to answer.”
“So, why?” Toshida asks and sips at his tea. “Why did you play him like that?”
“I wanted to tick him off,” Jun says automatically, surprised by his own words. He hasn’t realized that back then he really wanted to piss Sho off. “Oh my god,” he breaths out. “I just wanted to tick him off… I don’t get myself at all, really.”
Toshida tilts his head and stays silent for a while, before he puts his cup aside. “You wanted to have a reason to be openly mad at him. Because you don’t allow yourself to confront him about the past, you were searching for another way out. Am I right?”
Jun’s eyes are wide in shock. “I didn’t even realize that I did it with intent,” he mumbles, feeling miserable. “I mean, I hate this kind of drama actually. And once I was back home, and we fought, I felt miserable. I basically ran out of our shared apartment back to my own.”
“You left?” Toshida asks carefully.
“I didn’t even know that ran away from Sho-san, until I was at my own place, and it all sunk in.” Jun pauses, stirring in his tea nervously. “And then the usual happened. He came to my place. I think he actually wanted to talk, but we ended up having sex. The angry kind of sex.”
“And how did you feel?” Toshida wants to know, a soothing smile gracing his face, like he wants Jun to be as relaxed as possible… like they are talking about the weather.
“Not good,” Jun admits. He rubs his head slightly. “I’m a horrible person.”
“Jun-san,” Toshida interrupts him. “You are not. You just snapped, and it’s only natural that your emotions were stirred up and you felt confused. Don’t beat yourself up over it.” he smiles soothingly. “You had a fight, because you both wanted to hurt each other. You’ll learn from this mistake, I’m sure.” He pauses. “So you got intimate shortly afterwards?”
“Yes,” Jun admits shyly. “This time though it was different.”
“How?”
“I don’t mean the sex. It was the usual angry sex we used to have, but afterwards I felt really bad. And I guess Sho-san felt even worse.”
“Did you talk about it?”
“A bit, this morning. We agreed on liking each other more when we don’t get intimate that way. Sho-san felt really guilty though, and I tried to tell him that I’m just as guilty and stupid as he is.” Jun sighs. “Say it,” he mumbles. “One step forward, two steps back.”
Toshida chuckles. “I’m definitely not going to say anything like that.” He smiles warmly. “It’s not like I’m happy for the both of you to fall back into old patterns,” he points out. “But it's simply part of the process that something like this happens. Don’t beat yourself up over it, and your Sho-san shouldn’t do it either.” He smiles. “How about you try to see the progress you are making instead? After all, when was the last time you actually talked to each other openly? And you both felt bad about what happened, which is a good sign in general. You are seeing your relationship differently now and you expect different things. You both want to be happy with each other, and that’s a good thing.”
“I do,” Jun admits quietly. “I want to be happy with Sho. I want to stay together with him.”
“You know my answer to that,” Toshida says casually.
“You want him to visit you too.” Jun analyses. “And he wants to come.”
“He does?”
“Hm,” Jun sighs. “He asked me. I’m still trying to wrap my mind around it… and I know it’s important… and…”
“How about I talk to him separately,” Toshida offers.
For a moment Jun blinks in surprise. He hasn’t even taken this option into account. Of course it’s weird and embarrassing to know that Sho will talk to Toshida alone, but then… he is doing the same thing after all… “I think I need to get drunk to tell him that… but I’ll offer it to him.”
“Finally,” Toshida smiles proudly. “That’s a huge step forward. I think it will be a good opportunity for you and Sho-san.” He pauses, tilting his head slightly. “It reminds me of something I wanted to ask you since a while though.”
“What’s that?” Jun asks curiously.
“Why are you calling him Sho-san?” Toshida looks at him thoughtfully. “I’m just curious.”
“I’ve always called him like that,” Jun stutters. “I mean, I… sometimes I call him just Sho or Sho-kun, but most of the time… It feels so natural.”
“I was just curious,” Toshida admits. “There is nothing wrong about it, Jun-san.”
“So what do you suggest me to do now?” Jun asks carefully. “I’m afraid I’ll overthink everything again… and well… you know what happens then…”
Toshida turns a bit in his chair, eyeing the plate in front of them, then he looks at Jun directly. “Again, you know my answer to that.”
Jun swallows. “You want me to talk to him about everything that bothers me. To lay it all in front of him.”
Toshida nods.
“I can’t,” Jun says quietly. “I wish I could, but I’m not strong enough yet.”
“You are,” Toshida argues. “You just don’t believe it. But I’m not going to push you more for today, so… something different…” He looks at Jun with a smile. “When was the last time you went on a date?”
Jun blinks, frowning slightly, while he tries to think about this question. He blushes deeply. “Never.”
“You are kidding me?” Toshida obviously tries hard not to laugh.
“We are such a weird couple, aren’t we?”
“No, you aren’t weird. Unique maybe. But not weird.” Toshida forces another cup of tea on Jun. “Now you know what to do though. Go on a date. If your schedule allows it, you should probably even drive away for a weekend and spend some time together. At a place that is not home, somewhere else. Change of scene, you know?”
“My sister has a little cottage in the countryside, in the mountains. She might lend it to us for a weekend,” Jun offers quietly.
“Now that’s what I call a plan!”
~~~
“Stay!” Sho points with the wooden spoon at Jun who is relaxing on the sofa. “If you move once more and try to help me with cooking our lunch, I swear, I’ll spank you with that spoon.”
Jun has to laugh. “Are you actually trying to keep me away now or to allure me into doing it?”
“Uh,” Sho whispers, sneaking closer and kissing Jun, who was banished by him on the sofa. He is lying on his stomach now, sceptically eyeing Sho’s efforts in the kitchen. “My kinky sweetheart.”
“You were the one talking about spanking,” Jun points out teasingly.
“And you the one suggesting to try it,” Sho jokes, and smacks Jun’s butt with the spoon.
Jun jumps a little, and laughs. An interesting feeling, he decides, something he needs to analyse further. Sho seems to think the same, because he grins impishly. “Wait until you are better, and I’ll definitely get back to your suggestion.”
“I knew you were kinky.” Jun smiles.
“Yeah, we really complement each other’s strengths,” Sho grins, before he is all earnest again. His eyes widen in shock. “Ah, you distracted me. My soba noodles…”
Sho’s soba noodles were probably already ruined far before he had this little intermission with Jun. The taste is completely off, not only the texture, the soup is too salty and the onions he put into the soup were cut into huge pieces.
Sho pouts. “This doesn’t even remotely look like what you cook. And I thought after Yuka-san showed me how to do it today, I could finally provide you with something edible.” Jun is still searching for a diplomatic answer, when Sho says it himself. “Cooking is not my strength,” he sighs.
“Other things are though,” Jun points out. “Besides, the thought counts too!”
“Unfortunately the thought isn’t edible,” Sho whines and Jun just has to giggle at that silly comment.
“I’ll eat it though,” he points out and bravely digs into the salty soup. A nice thought, it’s a nice thought, he repeats like a mantra and actually manages to swallow down a bit from the food… until Sho takes his plate away.
“I don’t want to poison you,” Sho admits and smiles almost shyly. “When I went to the bathroom before I already called the sushi shop around the corner. They’ll deliver something.”
Jun wants to blurt out a Thank you, but bites down on his tongue before he can sound too over-excited for not having to finish Sho’s lunch. Instead he just smiles politely, nods and decides to change the subject. “Do you think it’s weird that I call you Sho-san or Sho-kun?” Jun frowns, rephrasing his question when he sees the confused look in Sho’s eyes. “I mean, would you prefer me to call you differently?”
Sho looks at Jun for a few seconds, then he smiles tentatively. “Did you always refer to me as Sho-san when you were with your therapist?”
Jun sighs slightly. “That obvious?”
“Why would you question it now,” Sho muses. “If not because he asked you about it. Besides, when I came to his place today, he greeted me like that too.”
“And?” Jun wants to know. “Does it bother you? Do you want me to call you differently?”
“Like what?” Sho asks with a teasing smile. “Honey, Babe, Sho-chan, King? Oh, or Hot-lover-san, Best-sex-san?”
Jun half glares, half chuckles. “Don’t be silly. I’m serious. I mean, should I call you…” He pauses, blushing when he continues “…Sho?” God, this is embarrassing. “Do you want me to add a –kun or a –chan… or I don’t know?”
For a moment Sho looks at him, then he giggles. “Sometimes you are so adorable,” he squeals. “As I said: my cute fluffball.”
Jun frowns. “And you are so silly sometimes.”
Sho grins. “Yes, maybe I am. But hey-“ He takes Jun’s hand, squeezing it softly. “You call me whatever way you like to call me. And I do the same. It’s our thing. The others might call each other Masaki-chan and Oh-chan and Nino-chan and whatever, they do their thing, we do ours. For me it’s a way of showing you my respect to call you Jun-san.”
Jun chuckles. “Who is being a cute fluffball now?” He rubs over Sho’s arms and smiles. “Fine, I agree. Another suggestion. Toshida-sensei inspired it…”
“What?” Sho asks curiously.
“How about the cute fluffball takes his sister’s cottage for a weekend and goes on a short little vacation with his silly hot-lover-san?” Jun offers, already bracing himself for any reaction this might evoke. Their schedules are loaded after all, and Sho’s is particularly crazy and-
“You mean a few days away from this place, from daily routine? Just the both of us together without being able to run away from something?” Sho chuckles. “Sounds scary and awesome at the same time. Let’s do it. But be aware that I won’t let you run in case we have a fight.”
“I would be mad if you’d let me,” Jun points out, realizing too late that what he just said is almost too mushy for him. To his relief the doorbell rings right at that moment, and their food gets delivered. Sho gladly can’t say anything to his last comment.
Slowly Jun starts to feel slightly optimistic again. They have a beautiful, relaxing dinner together, they talk about random stuff, and at one point Jun falls asleep at the sofa. When he wakes up again, it’s dark, and a blanket is covering him. Out of the study he can hear Sho’s voice though. Jun stands up silently, wanting to surprise Sho, but unfortunately he is on the phone. Jun is about to go back again, when he hears it.
No, I can’t tell it to Jun, particularly not Jun!… Yes, my dear…. No, I won’t… No, please don't tell it to my mother!...See you tomorrow, dear?
Jun leaves the door immediately, the last thing he wants is to spy on Sho or anything. He takes the blanket and goes to their bedroom thoughtfully. Who did Sho talk to? What can’t he tell him? And who the hell did he call dear? Something inside Jun’s stomach stings painfully. It just reminds him of things that happened long ago.
When Sho comes to the bedroom half an hour later, Jun pretends to be asleep. Should he ask Sho about it? No, it would be silly and pathetic to ask. It’s probably nothing at all…
A/N: So, Jun got some insight about his own actions again, Sho might visit Toshida-sensei too... and Sho has a secret? Something he hides from Jun?
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: R/NC-17 (not in every chapter though)
Beta:
little_kirinGenre: smut, romance, bit angst (no AU setting)
Plot: Is it love or hate or attraction? They share a history of ups and downs, from teenage crushes over not talking at all to accepting each other’s presence. Finally, six months ago, Sho approaches Jun, leading to them getting together. Unfortunately they can’t be in a room together without a fight. What they share though is passion, and the only time they get along is in bed. Then, during a drunk night when Jun vents out his anger, Ohno gives him the contact details of his therapist.
At the end, there remains the question: Who actually needs to tame who?
Note: This is going to have some passionate scenes, and will also contain the typical Sakumoto angst and quite some complicated feelings ^^ It was originally meant to have short chapters - some are a little longer though.
In case Toshida-sensei is surprised, he doesn’t show it. He wears a ridiculous blue-yellow beach shirt, the one Jun knows Ohno bought for him, and reaches out his hand non-chalantly. “It’s nice to finally meet you, infamous Sho-san. I’m sincerely happy, if not even thrilled to finally see you in person.”
Sho unsuccessfully tries to hide his surprise and embarrassment by hearing Toshida address him like that and bows slightly. “Thank you for your help. I’ll just wait here.”
“What are you talking about?” Toshida-sensei smiles cheerfully while he knocks at the door leading to his private apartment. When the door opens, Jun sees Yuko, his therapist’s wife. He already met her a few times and flailed over her perfect bakery. She is tall and slender, looks like she used to be a model and has an always so cheerful expression. “My dear,” Toshida smiles. “Can I load this young guy here at your place? His name is Sakurai-san.”
Yuko smiles towards Jun. “Hello, Jun-san.” She chuckles. And- “Of course, why not? He can have tea with me. I hope you don’t mind though that I’m cooking meanwhile.”
“I don’t want to bother you,” Sho stutters, throwing Jun a look of panic, like he is scared for his life and wants Jun to save him from a crazy maniac couple out of a horror movie. Jun can highly sympathize with him - when he first met Toshida he was also taken aback by his casual approach, his sun-burnt skin, his beach outfits and the way he stuffed him with food all the time.
“Maybe she could teach you how to cook,” Jun points out teasingly, mainly to loosen the tension. It works because Sho blushes and glares at him at the same time.
“Jun-san,” Sho grumbles reproachfully. “You are no help.”
Both Yuko and Toshida laugh and make a dismissive gesture with their hands. “Don’t be so shy, Sho-san,” Yuko chirps mercilessly. “I’ll make you work anyway. I need someone to cut vegetables.”
Jun shows Sho a hopefully supportive and encouraging smile before he follows Toshida with a tray with tea and mochi into his study. Toshida puts sugar into Jun’s tea and hands it to him. Before Jun can even carefully point out that he prefers no sugar, he shakes his head. “You look tired. Are you low on blood sugar?” he asks. “Drink that. It might boost your energy.”
Jun sighs and carefully sits down on the sofa. Fuck. Every movement hurts, seriously. “I…” he pauses, blushing slightly when Toshida looks at him patiently. “Kenichi-san… you’ll probably be mad.”
Toshida sighs. “I’m your therapist and not your father, Jun-san. I can’t get mad at you, it’s against my profession, and against my surfing-ideology.”
“There is a surfing-ideology?” Jun chuckles.
Toshida smirks. “There is.”
“I had a recurrence,” Jun points out, feeling more at ease again after his therapist’s weird joke. “A pretty bad one.”
Toshida nods. “I guessed that much already.”
“How?”
The other man shrugs a bit, and stirs some sugar into his own tea. “You look pale, and on top of that you brought Sho-san along. It never happened before.”
“We had a fight yesterday,” Jun points out. “A pretty bad one. Actually I was irritated the whole week. Yesterday was just the last straw.”
“Because you were thinking about our last talk and about what Sho-san did to you when you were young?” Toshida wants to know, and Jun can’t do anything else but shrug helplessly. “So, what happened?”
“I went out with friends,” Jun explains. “I didn’t tell Sho-san that I would be out.”
“Ignored his calls?” Toshida wants to know.
“And his messages,” Jun admits. “He just wanted to know if I’m alright, but I couldn’t bring myself to answer.”
“So, why?” Toshida asks and sips at his tea. “Why did you play him like that?”
“I wanted to tick him off,” Jun says automatically, surprised by his own words. He hasn’t realized that back then he really wanted to piss Sho off. “Oh my god,” he breaths out. “I just wanted to tick him off… I don’t get myself at all, really.”
Toshida tilts his head and stays silent for a while, before he puts his cup aside. “You wanted to have a reason to be openly mad at him. Because you don’t allow yourself to confront him about the past, you were searching for another way out. Am I right?”
Jun’s eyes are wide in shock. “I didn’t even realize that I did it with intent,” he mumbles, feeling miserable. “I mean, I hate this kind of drama actually. And once I was back home, and we fought, I felt miserable. I basically ran out of our shared apartment back to my own.”
“You left?” Toshida asks carefully.
“I didn’t even know that ran away from Sho-san, until I was at my own place, and it all sunk in.” Jun pauses, stirring in his tea nervously. “And then the usual happened. He came to my place. I think he actually wanted to talk, but we ended up having sex. The angry kind of sex.”
“And how did you feel?” Toshida wants to know, a soothing smile gracing his face, like he wants Jun to be as relaxed as possible… like they are talking about the weather.
“Not good,” Jun admits. He rubs his head slightly. “I’m a horrible person.”
“Jun-san,” Toshida interrupts him. “You are not. You just snapped, and it’s only natural that your emotions were stirred up and you felt confused. Don’t beat yourself up over it.” he smiles soothingly. “You had a fight, because you both wanted to hurt each other. You’ll learn from this mistake, I’m sure.” He pauses. “So you got intimate shortly afterwards?”
“Yes,” Jun admits shyly. “This time though it was different.”
“How?”
“I don’t mean the sex. It was the usual angry sex we used to have, but afterwards I felt really bad. And I guess Sho-san felt even worse.”
“Did you talk about it?”
“A bit, this morning. We agreed on liking each other more when we don’t get intimate that way. Sho-san felt really guilty though, and I tried to tell him that I’m just as guilty and stupid as he is.” Jun sighs. “Say it,” he mumbles. “One step forward, two steps back.”
Toshida chuckles. “I’m definitely not going to say anything like that.” He smiles warmly. “It’s not like I’m happy for the both of you to fall back into old patterns,” he points out. “But it's simply part of the process that something like this happens. Don’t beat yourself up over it, and your Sho-san shouldn’t do it either.” He smiles. “How about you try to see the progress you are making instead? After all, when was the last time you actually talked to each other openly? And you both felt bad about what happened, which is a good sign in general. You are seeing your relationship differently now and you expect different things. You both want to be happy with each other, and that’s a good thing.”
“I do,” Jun admits quietly. “I want to be happy with Sho. I want to stay together with him.”
“You know my answer to that,” Toshida says casually.
“You want him to visit you too.” Jun analyses. “And he wants to come.”
“He does?”
“Hm,” Jun sighs. “He asked me. I’m still trying to wrap my mind around it… and I know it’s important… and…”
“How about I talk to him separately,” Toshida offers.
For a moment Jun blinks in surprise. He hasn’t even taken this option into account. Of course it’s weird and embarrassing to know that Sho will talk to Toshida alone, but then… he is doing the same thing after all… “I think I need to get drunk to tell him that… but I’ll offer it to him.”
“Finally,” Toshida smiles proudly. “That’s a huge step forward. I think it will be a good opportunity for you and Sho-san.” He pauses, tilting his head slightly. “It reminds me of something I wanted to ask you since a while though.”
“What’s that?” Jun asks curiously.
“Why are you calling him Sho-san?” Toshida looks at him thoughtfully. “I’m just curious.”
“I’ve always called him like that,” Jun stutters. “I mean, I… sometimes I call him just Sho or Sho-kun, but most of the time… It feels so natural.”
“I was just curious,” Toshida admits. “There is nothing wrong about it, Jun-san.”
“So what do you suggest me to do now?” Jun asks carefully. “I’m afraid I’ll overthink everything again… and well… you know what happens then…”
Toshida turns a bit in his chair, eyeing the plate in front of them, then he looks at Jun directly. “Again, you know my answer to that.”
Jun swallows. “You want me to talk to him about everything that bothers me. To lay it all in front of him.”
Toshida nods.
“I can’t,” Jun says quietly. “I wish I could, but I’m not strong enough yet.”
“You are,” Toshida argues. “You just don’t believe it. But I’m not going to push you more for today, so… something different…” He looks at Jun with a smile. “When was the last time you went on a date?”
Jun blinks, frowning slightly, while he tries to think about this question. He blushes deeply. “Never.”
“You are kidding me?” Toshida obviously tries hard not to laugh.
“We are such a weird couple, aren’t we?”
“No, you aren’t weird. Unique maybe. But not weird.” Toshida forces another cup of tea on Jun. “Now you know what to do though. Go on a date. If your schedule allows it, you should probably even drive away for a weekend and spend some time together. At a place that is not home, somewhere else. Change of scene, you know?”
“My sister has a little cottage in the countryside, in the mountains. She might lend it to us for a weekend,” Jun offers quietly.
“Now that’s what I call a plan!”
~~~
“Stay!” Sho points with the wooden spoon at Jun who is relaxing on the sofa. “If you move once more and try to help me with cooking our lunch, I swear, I’ll spank you with that spoon.”
Jun has to laugh. “Are you actually trying to keep me away now or to allure me into doing it?”
“Uh,” Sho whispers, sneaking closer and kissing Jun, who was banished by him on the sofa. He is lying on his stomach now, sceptically eyeing Sho’s efforts in the kitchen. “My kinky sweetheart.”
“You were the one talking about spanking,” Jun points out teasingly.
“And you the one suggesting to try it,” Sho jokes, and smacks Jun’s butt with the spoon.
Jun jumps a little, and laughs. An interesting feeling, he decides, something he needs to analyse further. Sho seems to think the same, because he grins impishly. “Wait until you are better, and I’ll definitely get back to your suggestion.”
“I knew you were kinky.” Jun smiles.
“Yeah, we really complement each other’s strengths,” Sho grins, before he is all earnest again. His eyes widen in shock. “Ah, you distracted me. My soba noodles…”
Sho’s soba noodles were probably already ruined far before he had this little intermission with Jun. The taste is completely off, not only the texture, the soup is too salty and the onions he put into the soup were cut into huge pieces.
Sho pouts. “This doesn’t even remotely look like what you cook. And I thought after Yuka-san showed me how to do it today, I could finally provide you with something edible.” Jun is still searching for a diplomatic answer, when Sho says it himself. “Cooking is not my strength,” he sighs.
“Other things are though,” Jun points out. “Besides, the thought counts too!”
“Unfortunately the thought isn’t edible,” Sho whines and Jun just has to giggle at that silly comment.
“I’ll eat it though,” he points out and bravely digs into the salty soup. A nice thought, it’s a nice thought, he repeats like a mantra and actually manages to swallow down a bit from the food… until Sho takes his plate away.
“I don’t want to poison you,” Sho admits and smiles almost shyly. “When I went to the bathroom before I already called the sushi shop around the corner. They’ll deliver something.”
Jun wants to blurt out a Thank you, but bites down on his tongue before he can sound too over-excited for not having to finish Sho’s lunch. Instead he just smiles politely, nods and decides to change the subject. “Do you think it’s weird that I call you Sho-san or Sho-kun?” Jun frowns, rephrasing his question when he sees the confused look in Sho’s eyes. “I mean, would you prefer me to call you differently?”
Sho looks at Jun for a few seconds, then he smiles tentatively. “Did you always refer to me as Sho-san when you were with your therapist?”
Jun sighs slightly. “That obvious?”
“Why would you question it now,” Sho muses. “If not because he asked you about it. Besides, when I came to his place today, he greeted me like that too.”
“And?” Jun wants to know. “Does it bother you? Do you want me to call you differently?”
“Like what?” Sho asks with a teasing smile. “Honey, Babe, Sho-chan, King? Oh, or Hot-lover-san, Best-sex-san?”
Jun half glares, half chuckles. “Don’t be silly. I’m serious. I mean, should I call you…” He pauses, blushing when he continues “…Sho?” God, this is embarrassing. “Do you want me to add a –kun or a –chan… or I don’t know?”
For a moment Sho looks at him, then he giggles. “Sometimes you are so adorable,” he squeals. “As I said: my cute fluffball.”
Jun frowns. “And you are so silly sometimes.”
Sho grins. “Yes, maybe I am. But hey-“ He takes Jun’s hand, squeezing it softly. “You call me whatever way you like to call me. And I do the same. It’s our thing. The others might call each other Masaki-chan and Oh-chan and Nino-chan and whatever, they do their thing, we do ours. For me it’s a way of showing you my respect to call you Jun-san.”
Jun chuckles. “Who is being a cute fluffball now?” He rubs over Sho’s arms and smiles. “Fine, I agree. Another suggestion. Toshida-sensei inspired it…”
“What?” Sho asks curiously.
“How about the cute fluffball takes his sister’s cottage for a weekend and goes on a short little vacation with his silly hot-lover-san?” Jun offers, already bracing himself for any reaction this might evoke. Their schedules are loaded after all, and Sho’s is particularly crazy and-
“You mean a few days away from this place, from daily routine? Just the both of us together without being able to run away from something?” Sho chuckles. “Sounds scary and awesome at the same time. Let’s do it. But be aware that I won’t let you run in case we have a fight.”
“I would be mad if you’d let me,” Jun points out, realizing too late that what he just said is almost too mushy for him. To his relief the doorbell rings right at that moment, and their food gets delivered. Sho gladly can’t say anything to his last comment.
Slowly Jun starts to feel slightly optimistic again. They have a beautiful, relaxing dinner together, they talk about random stuff, and at one point Jun falls asleep at the sofa. When he wakes up again, it’s dark, and a blanket is covering him. Out of the study he can hear Sho’s voice though. Jun stands up silently, wanting to surprise Sho, but unfortunately he is on the phone. Jun is about to go back again, when he hears it.
No, I can’t tell it to Jun, particularly not Jun!… Yes, my dear…. No, I won’t… No, please don't tell it to my mother!...See you tomorrow, dear?
Jun leaves the door immediately, the last thing he wants is to spy on Sho or anything. He takes the blanket and goes to their bedroom thoughtfully. Who did Sho talk to? What can’t he tell him? And who the hell did he call dear? Something inside Jun’s stomach stings painfully. It just reminds him of things that happened long ago.
When Sho comes to the bedroom half an hour later, Jun pretends to be asleep. Should he ask Sho about it? No, it would be silly and pathetic to ask. It’s probably nothing at all…
A/N: So, Jun got some insight about his own actions again, Sho might visit Toshida-sensei too... and Sho has a secret? Something he hides from Jun?
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Date: 2016-11-20 05:39 pm (UTC)I apologize greatly to read and comment so late but it is really a period from hell! Let's move on to our two human cases! A short trip just the two !!! you how nice !!!! lovely idea Toshida-sensei! Everything can settle down a little at a time .... but no! Sho has a secret! I hope that is not doing the double play or worse otherwise the woodpecker !!!!!! thanks for the chapter! I go to retrieve the next chapters
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Date: 2016-12-03 05:42 pm (UTC)I'm so happy taht you are still on board :D