Shattered Smile: Chapter 6
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yume_to_amePairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG-13 (for now?)
Genre: romance, hurt&comfort
Plot: Young and ambitious medicine student Sho gets hired by wealthy Matsumoto-san to tutor his 19-year old son Jun. Jun spent months in hospital, they say, but now wants to get into a college. Soon Sho realizes that tutoring Jun is not all he needs to do. Jun seems to be broken, hiding from the world and not even opening up to his family anymore. I want to see him smile again, his father said, but no one tells Sho anything about what happened to Jun... It's incredible hard to put the broken pieces together again but Sho wants to try.
Note: This is my belated birthday story for
cielmelodies . I'm sorry it's soooo late!! I hope you will like it! Jun is like a lost puppy that needs to be cuddled.As always Jun tries to walk on his own for as long as possible, only taking Sho’s offered arm when necessary. “It’s getting easier, isn’t it?” Sho asks proudly when he sees that Jun’s steps are a lot steadier than when he first arrived at the manor.
Jun nods, eyeing Sho in his usual shy manner, but he is able to look at him directly now. He is almost getting bold, or something like bold. Bold-ish.
“Do you trust me, Jun-kun?”
Jun nods without hesitation.
Sho takes a deep breath before reaching out his hand to take Jun’s. “I want you to meet someone,” he says quietly. “I think you will be mad at me first, when you know who it is, but even so, I want you to give it a try.”
Jun stares at him for a while. “I will be mad at you?”
“For sure,” Sho tightens his grip on Jun’s hand and leads him further towards the meadow close to the lake. Sho wanted to take a closer look at the place for a while already, hence Jun didn’t feel suspicious before. “I’m sorry for tricking you into this,” Sho says quietly. “I really am. But I think it’s-“
Jun’s eyes finally meet the slender figure of a man sitting next to a single tree.
“Sho-kun,” he huffs. “Let go of my hand!”
Sho knew he would react like that. It’s inevitable. Seeing Jun angry for once should be refreshing, but it doesn’t feel good. “No,” Sho says firmly.
Jun tugs at his hand. “Let go,” he hisses.
Sho grabs Jun’s arm to stop him from wriggling, scared he might hurt himself. “Calm down,” he orders firmly. “You can’t run away from this your entire life! And you know it.”
Jun glares at him in anger, but to Sho’s relief the man approaches them now. It was surprisingly easy to make Shun agree to meet Jun. It was almost like he was just waiting for an opportunity. Now Sho just hopes that his feeling didn’t betray him and that Shun is the good guy his researches told him he is.
Shun drops his bag halfway and starts running towards Jun. Mentally Sho is prepared to kick him back into nirvana in case he shows signs of wanting to hurt Jun, but he doesn’t. He rips Jun into a hug like the lost friend he probably is.
“I thought I would never see you again,” Shun sobs into Jun’s shoulder. “I… missed you so much. I came to your hospital every day, but didn’t dare to go inside. I wished I was there that night, maybe…”
“You couldn’t have done anything,” Jun says quietly, his eyes widening after he spoke these words. Sho hopes that by saying them out loud, by saying them to Shun, he will realize that the same applies to himself too. No one could have done anything. It’s not Shun’s fault. It’s not Jun’s.
Sho reluctantly decides that these two need some privacy. “I’ll go back now,” he says softly, letting go of Jun’s arm. “Shun-kun please bring him home safely, don’t overstrain his health.”
Shun nods firmly. “I will.” He loosens his embrace and instead takes Jun’s arm to lead him to the place he was sitting before.
Jun throws Sho a glance, and Sho knows he will be okay.
~~~
Sho is studying for his own classes when Jun returns. To his utmost shock though Jun bows deeply in front of him. “Please forgive me,” Jun mumbles.
Sho looks at his friend in horror. “Did something happen?” He puts his notes aside, hurrying to stand at Jun’s side. He grabs his shoulders, forcing him to stand in an upright position again.
Jun looks miserable.
“Did Shun-san hurt you?” Sho asks in horror.
Jun shakes his head wildly. “It’s just…”
“Just?” Sho asks impatiently, getting nervous now.
“I yelled at you before, I’m sorry,” Jun finally says in a small voice.
Sho blinks. “You mean when I set you up with Shun?”
Jun nods, avoiding Sho eyes.
“That’s it?” Sho asks in relief.
Jun looks up at him in surprise. “But you are always so kind! And I got angry at you despite you only trying to help me all the time.”
Sho chuckles. “Of course you got angry at me. Everyone would. I meddled with your personal business and forced you to meet someone you were afraid of. I’m sorry for that, Jun-kun, I promise you I won’t do it again, it was an exceptional situation.”
“I know,” Jun says, looking at Sho nervously. “Are we good?”
“Are we?” Sho asks back.
Jun nods eagerly.
Sho smiles in relief. “Good,” he states, his heart thumping against his chest when he pulls Jun with him to the sofa and feels him sitting down close to him. He tries to look at Jun without staring, noticing his long eyelashes, his sharp features, his thick hair, his perfectly shaped nose. Now that his confidence is getting stronger each day, he is also dressing differently. Not hiding that much. Sho wonders if Jun even remotely knows how attractive he is.
Jun turns his head, staring right into Sho’s eyes now. He looks surprised for a moment and Sho is scared he will get upset over him staring, but he doesn’t. Instead Jun shows him a careful smile. “Hey,” he mumbles shyly.
“Hey,” Sho whispers.
Jun leans forward and Sho meets him halfway. He kisses Jun softly, carefully almost, afraid to hurt him or scare him away. To his surprise though he can hear a soft chuckle from Jun and before Sho can react he feels Jun’s tongue inside his mouth, tentative first before getting bolder. So good. Sho feels butterflies fluttering in his stomach, happy that Jun is the one who initiates to kiss with tongues involved, and before he can overthink it further, Sho leans into the kiss, fingers grabbing the back of Jun’s neck to hold him closer while kissing him heatedly. He tries to feel and taste the texture of Jun’s lips and explore the wet cavern offered to him. His free hand brushes over Jun’s sides and back, trying to feel his body through his clothes.
“Hello, I’m back!”
Jun and Sho draw apart immediately. Jun’s hair is slightly messy, his cheeks flushed and his lips slightly swollen. He looks alluring as hell, but it’s probably not the right timing to think that. Jun looks embarrassed and before Sho can react he acts on his own, hiding underneath the blanket Sho has put on the sofa and pretending to be asleep. Sho himself brushes through his own hair with all ten fingers to make it look less messy.
It’s Matsumoto-san who just came home from work.
“My adorable son is asleep?” he asks with a smile.
Sho can feel Jun’s body next to him stilling in surprise. His father probably never called him cute before. To imagine what kind of sad life Jun led, and his family too, and how it needed one of them to get into an accident for them to understand how important they are too each other.
Sho nods, brushing through his hair again in hope he looks kinda presentable. “Should I wake him up?” he asks in a low voice.
“No,” the man smiles. “Let him sleep. I’ll see him for dinner, though seeing my children once a day is not enough.”
Sho holds back a snort. First Satoshi shows his brother complex, and now Matsumoto is also developing a youngest-child-complex? Does this even exist?
“We are having dinner in one hour,” Matsumoto states before throwing a teasing glance at Sho. “Satoshi is coming any minute,” he adds with a smirk.
Sho blushes, horrified by the teasing and knowing glance Matsumoto gives him. To his luck though the man doesn’t say anything else and retreats. Sho lets out a sigh of relief. He bends forward to whisper into Jun’s ear. “Next time, Jun-kun, let’s make out in your or mine room. Or somewhere else.”
Jun doesn’t answer, and when Sho checks on him, he realizes he indeed fell asleep. Sho giggles helplessly, he is so cute, with his long eyelashes and his peaceful expression while asleep. Sho suddenly feels like a fifteen year old giggly and giddy schoolgirl fancying over her pretty classmate.
~~~
“We are all going to leave in a few days, Jun-kun, you know what this means, right?”
That’s what Sho told Jun yesterday, knowing he can’t trick Jun like he did with Shun a second time. This time Jun needs to be the one taking actions, and to his utmost surprise and joy he does. Aiba-san is making a barbecue on Friday evening, and Jun asked him to invite his son, and Nino.
“Jun,” Sho grabs his arm and stops him from doing anything, from freaking out. “It’s going to be alright.”
“But what if it isn’t?” Jun mumbles.
“It will, and I’m here too, remember?” Sho says softly, nuzzling his nose against Jun’s.
Jun smiles carefully. He still does that, smiling and feeling guilty afterwards, but at least sometimes he lets his guard down and shows Sho his rare emotions, like now. “I can’t lose them,” he admits. “I’m scared I’m going to lose them too.”
“Is this why you didn’t want to see them?”
“What if they leave me too?” Jun asks, his voice vibrating in nervousness. There is a tinge of desperation to it which makes Sho’s heart ache.
He takes Jun’s hand. “No one can make promises such as ‘he or she will never leave you’. But I can give you the promise to be there for you, as long as I’m alive.”
“What if you’ll find someone without issues, someone simpler, someone who is easier to handle?” Jun asks with tears in his eyes.
“I won’t ever leave you! Besides… simpler?” Sho raises his eyebrows. “As for now I think you are pretty easy to handle. Kinda simple-minded.” He grins when Jun throws him a glare and tugs his hand away. A little teasing always works miracles on Jun.
“Everything alright?” Matsumoto peeks into the room.
“Sho-san thinks I’m simpleminded,” Jun grumbles, eyes narrowed dangerously. He looks so cute like this.
Matsumoto nods. “Oh, okay.”
“Is that all?” Jun asks in horror.
Matsumoto seems to be surprised. “Was I supposed to react differently?”
“Jun,” Satoshi says, shoving his father aside and hugging Jun. “I don’t think you are simple at all.”
Jun sighs in relief. “Thank you, Sa-chan,” he says, before he follows his brother to set the table with him.
Matsumoto rubs over his head. “I still don’t quite get what just happened.”
“Nothing actually.” Sho bursts into giggles. “The brother complex is really something,” he grins.
“Yeah, you might want to distract Satoshi by finding him someone to date,” Matsumoto says dryly.
That’s actually a good idea, Sho thinks. Just with whom should he set Satoshi up? Is there anyone ready to volunteer?
~~~
“Where is he!?” Masaki blurts out, rushing past his father who looks like he wants nothing more than the ground to swallow him, and ignores Matsumoto and everyone else completely. Once he finds Jun, he glomps him like there is no tomorrow. “I missed you so much, Jun-chan!”
So much about they won’t forgive him.
“Eh, Masaki, let go of the poor guy,” Nino’s voice comes from behind.
Jun turns around with Masaki still clinging to his neck, before he bows deeply. “I’m so sorry for worrying you,” he stutters, his body tensed despite Masaki not letting go of him. “And for- I mean, I never answered your messages. And I-“
“Oh please,” Nino rolls his eyes but Sho can clearly see how affected he is. He looks like he is about to start sniffing and sobbing too. “Let’s not get anymore embarrassing and dramatic, shall we?”
Jun gets up again and nods carefully. Nino stretches out his hand and they make one of these buddy-greetings Sho always found weird, but finds kinda cute now that Jun is doing it. Nino holds Jun’s hand for a little longer. “Just don’t ever do it again, and we are fine.”
Jun nods with tears of relief in his eyes.
“Hey guys,” Satoshi says while joining them, smiling warmly at them. “The cook says dinner is going to be ready in twenty minutes, and we can already go outside to try some pieces from the barbecue.”
“Hi Satoshi-kun,” Masaki greets Jun’s older brother happily.
“Sa…” Nino stares at Satoshi for a while, shifting around nervously. “Hello Sa-chan!” he blurts, blushing slightly.
“Nice to meet you again, Kazu,” Satoshi says with a smile, annoyingly oblivious to how the other guy fancies him.
Sho smirks while he follows the others outside. Seems like he just found a volunteer to distract Satoshi from his brother complex.
~~~
“You know,” Matsumoto says while he hands a glass of red wine to Sho and Satoshi. “It’s all thanks to you.”
He sits down with a relieved sigh next to them. Sho and Satoshi have been sitting there since an hour, enjoying it to watch Jun and his friends chatting at the other side of the garden.
Sho blushes. “It’s not my doing,” he stutters.
“If it wasn’t for you, I would still not be able to face him properly,” Matsumoto says. “I would not have opened up to him.”
“I think you would have found a way,” Sho argues.
Satoshi smiles. “You and Jun are really stubborn. Just accept the compliment.”
“But I really think you are going too hard on yourselves,” Sho says, not ready to take all the credit for what happened. It could only happen because everyone played along and participated, everyone was ready to forgive.
“I don’t think so,” Satoshi mumbles. “I should have protected him at that night, I should have stopped him because he is my little brother. I should have reasoned with him, tried to talk to him, instead of snapping at him.”
“Come on, Satoshi,” Matsumoto says softly.
“When we argued, I swear something inside me broke too.”
Matsumoto lets out a snort. “Now you are overreacting!”
“I am not!” Satoshi complains. “It was the worst feeling ever! He looked so hurt and betrayed…”
Sho lets out a sigh. “The brother complex…”
“I don’t have a brother complex,” Satoshi grumbles.
Matsumoto pats his shoulder. “Sure, my son.”
Sho agrees, but at the same time he bites down on his tongue not to comment on Matsumoto’s newfound father complex. The shock of almost loosing Jun that night has made these two men very protective of him. Well, Sho thinks, at least he can be sure that Jun will always get support from these two.
“It’s been forever since Jun smiled like this,” Matsumoto muses into the silence.
Sho smiles while he watches Jun. His father is right, it’s been long, but now at least sometimes Jun allows himself to smile.
A/N: I almost decided not to post this week (kinda tired and lazy, and it doesn't seem like a lot of people are online at the moment), but then I saw all your comments on the last chapter. And I didn't want to disappoint anyone who is waiting for this <3
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Date: 2017-11-12 09:03 pm (UTC)It is wonderful that he is back with Masaki and Nino (those guys missed him so much).
And I am pleased that he is responding so boldly to Sho's advances.
Thank you for such a happy chapter Lilly 💜
*hugs*
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Date: 2017-12-01 08:57 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for your lovely comment, my friend! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-12 09:13 pm (UTC)Wow, there was a lot going on in this one.Congrats to Sho for successfully tricking Sho, and in the end earning a well deserved kiss. 💖💖💖 Oh, and Jun’s dad seems to be a very cool guy (and well informed 😏). As for Jun: I somehow like to believe that he has been thinking about how sexy Sho is ever since they went to the lake first time, cheeky boy 😝
It's great that Jun managed to get back to his friends, ...and them just being glad, not making any fuzz... (feel so relieved for Jun)
Yeah and then Satoshi - "come on guy you know need a the cheeky little bas**** in your live, go for it"。。。(well, that is, after he someone is able to open his eyes and see Kazu,though he calls him that already🙄)
Anyway dear, great job !
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Date: 2017-12-01 08:58 pm (UTC)I'm pretty sure Jun has already checked out Sho, don't worry ;-)
Thanks so much for your lovely comment, dear! ♥ (and sorry for only updating now ><)
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Date: 2017-11-12 11:43 pm (UTC)SPOT when m awake heheh zzAhhh!!!!! You made them kiss!! :D Or, well, have the equivalent of a teenage making out session - heehee XD. It's so cuteee. And them (nearly?) getting caught by Jun's dad - and THEN JUN FALLS ASLEEP. I could just squeal from the cuteness.
I'm so glad that Sho made Jun meet Shun - Jun really needed that closure, and I hope to see him improve (mood and health wise) in the following chapters, and Sho help him do so <3
Thank you so much for posting it, despite feeling tired. ^^. I understand the observation that there's not a lot of people online in the moment... but I hope you feel better soon <3 Take a break if you need one, we're always here. *hugs*
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:00 pm (UTC)Jun is like a shy, fluffy bunny, right? Or a kitten to say it with yours and le-chan's words? :D
Sho really gave it his all to make Jun face his friends and past. He really deserved that kiss, didn't he? :D
Thanks so much for your lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-13 02:59 am (UTC)thanks for the update. *kiss
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:00 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for reading and commenting! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-13 09:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-12-01 09:00 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for your lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-13 04:55 pm (UTC)And their making out session... how cute they're when matsumoto-san come back home
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:01 pm (UTC)I'm so happy you can envision this adorable sweet smile Jun shows Sho <3
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Date: 2017-11-15 07:53 am (UTC)And im blushing hard when ohmiya greet each other! Please do something SHO!!!
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:02 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for your lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-18 09:00 am (UTC)I'm so happy that Jun finally met Shun even when he was tricked into it (that was a smart move by Sho otherwise Jun wouldn't do it on his own) and then when Masaki and Nino came and able to meet Jun I smiled so widely. Aww finally!
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:03 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for your lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2017-11-19 12:27 pm (UTC)I hope Jun can open up more.
Thanks for the update.😘
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Date: 2017-12-01 09:03 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for your comment, dear <3