Imbalance: 10 Hush

[lilly0]

Title: Imbalance 10: Hush
Pairing: Sakumoto, Juntoshi
Rating: R
Genre: romance, somewhat angsty?
Plot: It's always been okay for him to be the person in a relationship who loves more.
Note: This is akhikaru 's fault, and also learashi , with their prompt tables and awesome drabble series <3  I've decided to treat this like a challenge. I'm using a prompt-table from lj, and will write these drabbles as they come to my mind, withoug planning anything in advance. It's going to be one story in the end, but the drabbles won't be posted in the correct timeline

This is the correct timeline up to now:  01: Lively, 07: Cut, 10:  Hush, 08 Compromise, 04 Heavy, 05 Forward, 06 Prowl, 02 Remorseful, 03 Dismiss, 09 Impulse

 

Ohno wraps his arms around Jun’s body, pulling him closer to his chest. Compared to Jun’s shrimp-like appearance (at least to Jun he looks like a shrimp.) his arms are strong.

 

He cries. Ohno doesn’t say anything, just hugs him, his fingers brushing over Jun’s cheeks to wipe the tears away.

 

“Why do you love him so much?” he asks softly. “Jun, everything he does is hurting you.”

 

“We hurt each other,” Jun says in return, his voice hoarse. “I’m not better than he is.” Sho is like his drug, he is dependent on his affection, he is addicted to this relationship. “I’m the problem too,” he mumbles, shocked as the realisation suddenly hits him. It’s not only Sho. It’s Sho and him together.

 

“If you would only open your eyes,” Satoshi mumbles. “Only once, and try to see someone next to Sho.”

 

Jun blinks in surprise. “What do you mean?”

 

Satoshi sighs, his thumb brushing over Jun’s cheeks. “I know, we agreed on what we have is just casual, but if you ever change your mind and want someone else besides Sho, think of me, will you?”

 

“Satoshi-san, I…” Jun’s voice trails off, suddenly feeling panicked. Does this mean that Satoshi…

 

Satoshi rolls his eyes, and hugs him tighter. “Don’t overthink it, idiot. I didn’t say that I’m dying of love now, I would just be willing to give us a chance if time is right.”

 

“What if time will never be right?” Jun asks shakily. “Because I will end up dead one day?”

 

Satoshi pulls back, eyes wide “What do you mean?” he asks, sudden worry filling his eyes.

 

“Nothing,” Jun says with a forced smile. He really doesn’t know what he was saying now. “I just didn’t think properly.”



A/N: So, Ohno likes Jun maybe, already when they were teens or students?
I guess at that age though Jun was too much in love with Sho to see anyone else...

Comments

[lilly0]

Ohno is much more steady than Sho is. Jun's relationship with Sho is destructive, but he is dependent on him which is why he can't let go... But we'll see what the future holds (after all in the current timeline Jun and Ohno broke up very recently)

Thanks so much for reading <3